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[_sado_]

Kinda weird when i talk to shell, sometimes on the phone we get pretty deep on things. For instance, more often than not I get self absorbed and we talk about me (it helps she likes analyze people) and we usually delve into my negativity and trust issues. I don't know why i'm negative and why i hate people, its just the way i am. I pretty much

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[ayanamilisa]

I hope this doesn't offend you but honestly it sounds more like a defense mechanism than a trust issue. If you automatically think people suck then if they are mean to you or don't like you, nothing bad comes of it. If those people are good or nice people why don't they like you? stuff like that. Anyway that's what I think because I used to kind of think that way and I understand how it is.

[_sado_]

That actually makes more sense than what i typed :)

[ayanamilisa]

I spent the better part of my young teenage life bitterly hating people because I didn't feel accepted. Sometimes I really wish I could rewind and do it all over. The bottom line is you will have more friends and be happier if you aren't carrying that anger with you. See? every once in awhile I have some good things to say :-D