deepness/
Kinda weird when i talk to shell, sometimes on the phone we get pretty deep on things. For instance, more often than not I get self absorbed and we talk about me (it helps she likes analyze people) and we usually delve into my negativity and trust issues. I don't know why i'm negative and why i hate people, its just the way i am. I pretty much think everyone is a moron and a jerk until i get to know them, i guess thats a trust issue there alone. I feel bad about it sometimes, but i don't think its anything i need to change. I don't think i'm a bad person because of me being able to be mean to people. For me i find it fun to be mean and to make people angry. In the end i guess i don't want her to judge me on this shit, hopefully she knows me better than that