a song i wrote

[_ryannn_]

this is just a work in progress, but i think it sums up how i felt and feel right about now.

You took a life. You filled a hole.
I looked inside and trembled.
But if I say I love you, do you repeat?
If the answers yes, then what do you mean?
I choke on my thoughts, and my sight goes dim.
My lungs breathe out, and my chest caves in.
Drive the car off a bridge. A suicide attempt
Nobody says you won’t; nobody says you can’t.
I’ll end it all right here right now,
Tonight I’m gonna show you how.

And if I were to die tonight,
Would it make you cry tonight?
Would you even remember me?
Or would you go on with you life?

I close my eyes. I let the wheel go.
The car swerves left, and I go off the road.
I open my eyes and realize,
While a song plays on the radio,
I really don’t want to hurt you,
I decide it’s not my time to go.
So I suck it up, and keep it in.
And I wait for it all to begin.
My life with you, but not with me,
I’m not okay, but I’ll have to be.

And if I were to die tonight,
Would it make you cry tonight?
Would you even remember me?
Or would you go on with you life?