My how things change.
I know I post a lot about this relationship, but that's because it's so strange. He's really there for me. This relationship just clicks really well. There are a few things I'm afraid of, mainly to do with his income, but we'll be fine. He's so supportive of everything I want to do. He treats me like I'm the most amazing woman he's ever met. And his family! I love his family! They have treated me like a part of their family from day one. His brother and sister-in-law's kids are absolutely adorable, and they love us. Gary's mom told me that she and her mom absolutely love me. I'm kind of unsure of Gary's dad sometimes, but he's a really nice guy. He and Terry have been married almost 16 years.
I used to compare Gary to Brad to see how he would fail, but he's been better in every way. Don't get me wrong, I loved Brad very deeply, but I think it's only because I wanted to, not because I actually really loved him. I don't know if that made sense. It's just that I really had hope for that relationship, but being in this one really makes me see all the flaws from that one. I had a very deep love for Brad, and what he did to me really hurt me, and has left me with some definite trust issues. I don't like Gary to even talk to girls I don't know, and he definitely can't hang out with anyone I haven't met. But I know he'd never cheat on me. He loves me too much.
This relationship makes me forget about all the other shitty ones. All though I've got some concerns, I know that once he gets home, I'll get my chance to talk about them with him and come to a reasonable answer. I won't have to be afraid to even talk about the problems. I don't have to deal with everything myself and keep myself closed off from the one person who should know me best. Brad never really knew me. He thought he did, but he really didn't, or he could have seen how unhappy I was. But that's over, thank God. And this relationship feels like it's more mature than my others. No little-kid head games, no closed off emotions, none of that. It's true honesty.
Oh my god. It's true love. Wow. I never thought of that before, but this is what they mean by that. Not that one person, but the bond you share with them. True Love. Amazing.
I used to compare Gary to Brad to see how he would fail, but he's been better in every way. Don't get me wrong, I loved Brad very deeply, but I think it's only because I wanted to, not because I actually really loved him. I don't know if that made sense. It's just that I really had hope for that relationship, but being in this one really makes me see all the flaws from that one. I had a very deep love for Brad, and what he did to me really hurt me, and has left me with some definite trust issues. I don't like Gary to even talk to girls I don't know, and he definitely can't hang out with anyone I haven't met. But I know he'd never cheat on me. He loves me too much.
This relationship makes me forget about all the other shitty ones. All though I've got some concerns, I know that once he gets home, I'll get my chance to talk about them with him and come to a reasonable answer. I won't have to be afraid to even talk about the problems. I don't have to deal with everything myself and keep myself closed off from the one person who should know me best. Brad never really knew me. He thought he did, but he really didn't, or he could have seen how unhappy I was. But that's over, thank God. And this relationship feels like it's more mature than my others. No little-kid head games, no closed off emotions, none of that. It's true honesty.
Oh my god. It's true love. Wow. I never thought of that before, but this is what they mean by that. Not that one person, but the bond you share with them. True Love. Amazing.