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I really should update more. Not jsut about J, but also about me. The J diaries are fun, but it is also my journal (a paid one even).
Anyways. There is so much I wanted to tell. So much I wanted to post. But why didn't I? It's moslty lack of energy and time. J is so wonderful (she really is a sweetheart) and I love having her around, but she is also very time consuming and I find it so hard to get enough hours of sleep. And after months of being a bit sleep deprived it get's to you. I even called in sick one week, because I just couldn't go on anymore. I went to the doctor, but apparently there is nothing wrong with me. I'm just so tired. Of course I have always struggled with being tired, but not as extreme as now. It's not funny anymore. Being tired makes things harder and more negative. When I feel more rested things go easier and I'm a lot more fun to be around.
I can't post anymore about all the things I wanted to. I want to, but it's just so much and I want to take the time to do it, but in the end it just doesn't happen (due to the reasons above). So I have decided I should make smaller updates once in a while. About anything.
Like I had my hair cut this week (finally, this long hair was bothering me and J pulling on it I had it tied back anyways). Finally all the old dye is out of my hair and for the first time the bf sees me with my natural hair colour. And I now at least loose only half the amount of hair (I'm loosing so much hair. I think it's all the hair I didn't loose when I was pregnant).
Or about the garden. I didn't have a lot of time to spend on the garden this year, but the raspberries made up for that on their own (it kinda is a weed. It pops up everywhere).
Or about me still not really fitting pre-pregnancy clothes even though I have lost all the pregnancy weight. I hate excersize...
Or about work. Or better not. It has been quite a drama and not worth to spend even more energy on.
Anyways, I hope I will be able to update more (not sure anybody is interested though. Almost everybody on my flist isn't active on LJ anymore). I use the computer three times a day now (to use the breastpump), so a quick entry should be possible right (I will just have to get myself over the "I'm so tired" feeling, because I fear it will stay around for a while).
Anyways. There is so much I wanted to tell. So much I wanted to post. But why didn't I? It's moslty lack of energy and time. J is so wonderful (she really is a sweetheart) and I love having her around, but she is also very time consuming and I find it so hard to get enough hours of sleep. And after months of being a bit sleep deprived it get's to you. I even called in sick one week, because I just couldn't go on anymore. I went to the doctor, but apparently there is nothing wrong with me. I'm just so tired. Of course I have always struggled with being tired, but not as extreme as now. It's not funny anymore. Being tired makes things harder and more negative. When I feel more rested things go easier and I'm a lot more fun to be around.
I can't post anymore about all the things I wanted to. I want to, but it's just so much and I want to take the time to do it, but in the end it just doesn't happen (due to the reasons above). So I have decided I should make smaller updates once in a while. About anything.
Like I had my hair cut this week (finally, this long hair was bothering me and J pulling on it I had it tied back anyways). Finally all the old dye is out of my hair and for the first time the bf sees me with my natural hair colour. And I now at least loose only half the amount of hair (I'm loosing so much hair. I think it's all the hair I didn't loose when I was pregnant).
Or about the garden. I didn't have a lot of time to spend on the garden this year, but the raspberries made up for that on their own (it kinda is a weed. It pops up everywhere).
Or about me still not really fitting pre-pregnancy clothes even though I have lost all the pregnancy weight. I hate excersize...
Or about work. Or better not. It has been quite a drama and not worth to spend even more energy on.
Anyways, I hope I will be able to update more (not sure anybody is interested though. Almost everybody on my flist isn't active on LJ anymore). I use the computer three times a day now (to use the breastpump), so a quick entry should be possible right (I will just have to get myself over the "I'm so tired" feeling, because I fear it will stay around for a while).