Now what?

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I am a man whose potential is quickly tiring of being wasted. I have a writing ability that has recently landed two letters to the editor in the local paper and garnered some local attention. Is it profitable? Of course not.

I was also involved with a couple of crooks who claimed they had a successful railroading business down in Kentucky and also claimed they needed my help. They did need my help, big time, but refused to pay me. Every other day for two weeks the debate of pay came up, my computer died, they wanted things done in their own way which was ironically enough not making them a dime, I cut them off on Friday.

I have a seniority hearing with CSX on Thursday to determine my employment. I have an interview tomorrow with the largest manufacturer of semi trailers in the world for a 3rd shift dispatching job. My wife got a job on Friday with the largest pharmacuetical manufacturer in the world, her future is looking up. It kills me that she has to look down and back to find me. Our 1 year wedding anniversary is tomorrow.

Fuck this lesson of life. We should never have to worry where our next meal is coming from.