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just having a rough day, I've only been out of bed to come on the computer, I'm still sitting here in my pyjamas. I just have no motivation. Been talking a bit more to folks online about what has happened, makes it a bit more easy, at least I know theres people who will listen when I want them to. I feel like shit.
I just want my baby. We named him Junior after Junior Murvin. I wish I had spent more time with him, I wish that I had held him and talked to him....
I hate putting all of this up here for the world to see, but I guess it's kinda cathartic. I wanna find out what I can do, I need to turn all of this into a positive, maybe I'll get involved in some sort of organisation. I wanna help other woman who have to go through this. I desperately wish I had someone to talk to when I had to make the decision.
I find it really hard to type all this stuff, I mean it's easy to talk about it, but when I put it up here it's making it so permenant. It's always gonna be here for people to see and comment on. Ah fuck knows.
I need to get out and do stuff, but I just don't like leaving the house by myself. I'm learing to play the drums so scott and I can get this band together finally. And I'm nearly finished the cd, I just need to finalise the artwork and send it away to be pressed.
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
Sometimes I feel like I have nobody to talk to. I know there's people who will listen, but they don't have a clue what I've been through, even derek who was there every step of the way can't even begin to understnad how I feel.
Oh, who knows??
I just want my baby. We named him Junior after Junior Murvin. I wish I had spent more time with him, I wish that I had held him and talked to him....
I hate putting all of this up here for the world to see, but I guess it's kinda cathartic. I wanna find out what I can do, I need to turn all of this into a positive, maybe I'll get involved in some sort of organisation. I wanna help other woman who have to go through this. I desperately wish I had someone to talk to when I had to make the decision.
I find it really hard to type all this stuff, I mean it's easy to talk about it, but when I put it up here it's making it so permenant. It's always gonna be here for people to see and comment on. Ah fuck knows.
I need to get out and do stuff, but I just don't like leaving the house by myself. I'm learing to play the drums so scott and I can get this band together finally. And I'm nearly finished the cd, I just need to finalise the artwork and send it away to be pressed.
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
Sometimes I feel like I have nobody to talk to. I know there's people who will listen, but they don't have a clue what I've been through, even derek who was there every step of the way can't even begin to understnad how I feel.
Oh, who knows??