major update
life's getting better, but staying the same.
piano/acoustic/electric.... mellow music is the new Metal/ country/ classic rock ( for me )
new friends new respect level. i never would have thought that it would happen, but i've sobered up and DD'd for enough people now that they see im not the same old selfish, asshole, jerkoff of a guy i was 6-9 months ago.
you dont have to take it from the horses mouth... but if you will i beleive im a much more mature person i used to be.
im still appathetic but not to the same level. i care more about more people.
i havn't been able to paint lately, and i want to. i have no brushes...
im not sure but i beleive i have..... an emotional attachment to 3 girls right now... and im not sure if any of the girls have a clue... i beleive that they all think of me as just a good "sweet" guy friend.
after all of my bitching and complaining over the past year about relationships i know now that i wasnt ready for a relationship yet, but now through what i've done over the coarse of this school year i think i can appreciate a relationship more. i think i could actually sustain a relationship for a relativly long time...
no more one night stands, no more.... i dont want them anymore. it isnt necessary, it doenst make anyone feel better about themselves.. it causes false hopes. unwanted confusion, and drama.
yeah i think the only two "substances" i'll be consuming are nicotine and caffine.
the rule still stands. if i get into a serious relationship i will quit smoking at her request.
i dont have insomnia after all... i just dont sleep at the normall times. i sleep from 3-7 AM then from 3:30- 6 PM then from 7 or 8- 9 PM...
i get by... it's weird... i dont plan on it and i can get by without it... but it's been the routine since before thanksgiving 05'
as if i didnt write enough online or in other classes... my creative writing teacher requires 5 3/4 page journal entries every week... thursday- wed. week that is... im not pissed... nor does it really bother me... but i could probly do without it.
im building Droski a 8' X 8' green screen for special effects.
....eh that's pretty much it for now...
piano/acoustic/electric.... mellow music is the new Metal/ country/ classic rock ( for me )
new friends new respect level. i never would have thought that it would happen, but i've sobered up and DD'd for enough people now that they see im not the same old selfish, asshole, jerkoff of a guy i was 6-9 months ago.
you dont have to take it from the horses mouth... but if you will i beleive im a much more mature person i used to be.
im still appathetic but not to the same level. i care more about more people.
i havn't been able to paint lately, and i want to. i have no brushes...
im not sure but i beleive i have..... an emotional attachment to 3 girls right now... and im not sure if any of the girls have a clue... i beleive that they all think of me as just a good "sweet" guy friend.
after all of my bitching and complaining over the past year about relationships i know now that i wasnt ready for a relationship yet, but now through what i've done over the coarse of this school year i think i can appreciate a relationship more. i think i could actually sustain a relationship for a relativly long time...
no more one night stands, no more.... i dont want them anymore. it isnt necessary, it doenst make anyone feel better about themselves.. it causes false hopes. unwanted confusion, and drama.
yeah i think the only two "substances" i'll be consuming are nicotine and caffine.
the rule still stands. if i get into a serious relationship i will quit smoking at her request.
i dont have insomnia after all... i just dont sleep at the normall times. i sleep from 3-7 AM then from 3:30- 6 PM then from 7 or 8- 9 PM...
i get by... it's weird... i dont plan on it and i can get by without it... but it's been the routine since before thanksgiving 05'
as if i didnt write enough online or in other classes... my creative writing teacher requires 5 3/4 page journal entries every week... thursday- wed. week that is... im not pissed... nor does it really bother me... but i could probly do without it.
im building Droski a 8' X 8' green screen for special effects.
....eh that's pretty much it for now...