A Letter To You, One That You Will Never Read
** In the end I think I fear you. I fear the way you make me feel. I fear the way that you act, but most of all I fear losing you. It's not the punishment that I might endure while talking to you, it's the fact that you don't know what I've gone through just to listen to your words play over in my mind. So many times I've tried to tell you just how much you mean to me but stop myself for fear of scaring you away, or hurting myself. The thing I fear the most is losing you forever. Friends are a precious commodity, one that I seem to be in short supply of, especially one as good as you. Sometimes I think to myself that losing you would be the best thing because then I'd be forced to let go. To be forever free of my feelings that won't be returned. I'm tired of having my heart broken by reasons that are purely my own fault. So here's to some form of goodbye. Have a nice life, take care, and be safe. Above all else I wish you the happiness that I couldn't give you. Always look out for yourself and remember that I'll always care. You're a part of my heart, now and forever. I promised nothing and hoped for everything, and I guess I just wished on the wrong kind of star. I've come to learn that promises hold very little truth to them. A sad notion, bit one that makes you stop and think before you believe someone when they say 'I promise'. I have become plagued by an endless sense of falling, and I regret the knowledge that there is no one to catch me. I realize that I'm drowning in my own tears and a puddle of fears, but I guess that a happy life is just a fairytale only a fool could dream of. Life is not the amount of breaths you take, but the number of moments that take your breath away. **
"Broken this fragile thing now, and I can't, I can't pick up the pieces. And I've thrown my words all around, but I can't, I can't give you a reason . . . Made my mistakes, let you down, and I can't, I can't hold on for too long . . . Ran my whole life into the ground, and I can't, I can't get up when your gone . . . And something's breaking up . . . I'll never give it up . . . I won't walk out until you know . . . Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you, you are my only one . . . I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one . . ."
After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn't mean learning and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. . . . And you learn that you really can endure . . . that you really are strong. And you really do have worth. ~Anonymous~
I'll stop loving you when
Diamonds never sparkle
And flowers cease to grow
When thunder doesn't echo
And rivers never flow
When hearts no longer wonder
And hands are never held
When smiles are only memories
And hope is never felt
When trees no longer blossom
And the stars refuse to shine
When autumn has no falling leaves
And winter no longer dies
When time has no more tomorrow's
And rainbows have no hue
When God alone commands me
Then I'll stop loving you
"Broken this fragile thing now, and I can't, I can't pick up the pieces. And I've thrown my words all around, but I can't, I can't give you a reason . . . Made my mistakes, let you down, and I can't, I can't hold on for too long . . . Ran my whole life into the ground, and I can't, I can't get up when your gone . . . And something's breaking up . . . I'll never give it up . . . I won't walk out until you know . . . Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you, you are my only one . . . I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one . . ."
After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn't mean learning and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. . . . And you learn that you really can endure . . . that you really are strong. And you really do have worth. ~Anonymous~
I'll stop loving you when
Diamonds never sparkle
And flowers cease to grow
When thunder doesn't echo
And rivers never flow
When hearts no longer wonder
And hands are never held
When smiles are only memories
And hope is never felt
When trees no longer blossom
And the stars refuse to shine
When autumn has no falling leaves
And winter no longer dies
When time has no more tomorrow's
And rainbows have no hue
When God alone commands me
Then I'll stop loving you