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i come back wednesday. thats three days. part of me wants to, but honestly, most of me doesn't. i never realised how unhappy i was until i got out here. at first i was homesick like crazy. then i started being nostalgic, and even called him, then that blew up -thank god- 'cause i know i really didn't want that again.
then for the past week, i've just been analyzing things, i realize i only have 2 true friends. like friends that would never back stab me, would always be there for me, and when i'm out of town (cough) always call when i started to feel lonely, or leave me little myspace messages/comments telling me they miss me. i've also realized, i have them and then i have another set of friends that are my 'just have fun' friends.
but i think i'm going to start doing something new. forgetting guys, and worrying more about friends & making me happy. being out here makes me wanna start all over. plus, i found out i have no choice, i have to go to ocoee.. so i'm going to start hanging out with my cousin from olympia more so i can meet more people from that area (west orange/olympia).
all in all, i'm glad i have for 3 weeks. it gave me enough time to get homesick, then get over it & enjoy the time away. it was my sweet escape.
<3
heather
p.s. i cut my hair & not i wanna dye it.. either more highlights & more of them, + a bunch more colors OR i wanna die it darker.. like way darker. let me know.
p.s.s. hopefully someone will save me from this feeling
then for the past week, i've just been analyzing things, i realize i only have 2 true friends. like friends that would never back stab me, would always be there for me, and when i'm out of town (cough) always call when i started to feel lonely, or leave me little myspace messages/comments telling me they miss me. i've also realized, i have them and then i have another set of friends that are my 'just have fun' friends.
but i think i'm going to start doing something new. forgetting guys, and worrying more about friends & making me happy. being out here makes me wanna start all over. plus, i found out i have no choice, i have to go to ocoee.. so i'm going to start hanging out with my cousin from olympia more so i can meet more people from that area (west orange/olympia).
all in all, i'm glad i have for 3 weeks. it gave me enough time to get homesick, then get over it & enjoy the time away. it was my sweet escape.
<3
heather
p.s. i cut my hair & not i wanna dye it.. either more highlights & more of them, + a bunch more colors OR i wanna die it darker.. like way darker. let me know.
p.s.s. hopefully someone will save me from this feeling