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Blah. Omg what a crappy day....
Rebecca had her gradings today... the extra special one she was given after she didn't break her boards at the main grading in December... the mini-gradings are held at our hall, and we close this partition thing and train at the front....
And I REALLY didn't want to go... I didn't want to have to confront anyone with the sad smiles or the looks or anything like that. i spent most of today convincing myself on WHY I shouldn't go.
But then, you know, after talking to mother and Jenny, I decided i would go. Who the fuck cares what everyone thinks... I don't have an issue with Rebecca, at all.
So I went.
We couldnt see them grading... but oh god I heard it when she broke those boards... the entire room just erupted into cheers. I swear to god I nearly started crying right then on the spot..
I feel all crappy.... I just wish this whole bloody thing would end.
Rebecca had her gradings today... the extra special one she was given after she didn't break her boards at the main grading in December... the mini-gradings are held at our hall, and we close this partition thing and train at the front....
And I REALLY didn't want to go... I didn't want to have to confront anyone with the sad smiles or the looks or anything like that. i spent most of today convincing myself on WHY I shouldn't go.
But then, you know, after talking to mother and Jenny, I decided i would go. Who the fuck cares what everyone thinks... I don't have an issue with Rebecca, at all.
So I went.
We couldnt see them grading... but oh god I heard it when she broke those boards... the entire room just erupted into cheers. I swear to god I nearly started crying right then on the spot..
I feel all crappy.... I just wish this whole bloody thing would end.