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so, its been a REALLY long time since ive last updated this thing.
ive had my heart broken. ive had my heart fixed. ive lost friends and gained friends and re-discovered old friends. i miss past summers. i love the way certain smells [ex: cologne, saltwater, cookies] can remind me of certain things and the way they made me feel. i like singing along to the radio. you might think im dumb because of the music i listen too.. i think you're dumb because you have a small mind. i really dont like small minded people who think they're better than everyone. people shouldnt talk behind other peoples backs. i do it, but i wish i didnt. it a hard habit. im not good with confrontation. i hide my depression with a smile, but when im alone, its hard to do anything but think about why my life sucks right now. i tend to talk about myself alot, which needs to stop. i hate bad attention. i like it when people talk good things about me, and im the center of attention for soemthing good, but if its something bad, then i'd rather not be there.
last week i had the worst day of my life. my dog died and i wrecked my car.. on the same day. it was awful. thank God for my friends. i dont know what i wouldve done without them. i dont like to be in my house by myself anymore. too quiet. it freaks me out, which is why im never home. i still half expect pookie to come running up to the door with his big bobble head. the damages on my car are at $3,000+ right now. i like my rental so much more. 2003 jetta. good times. its better than my 2000 echo.. oh well. a car is a car and i shouldnt complain right? im spoiled and im a brat. i know these things, thanks. you dont have to tell me. i hear it everyday, but you know what, screw people.