Tributes, Obvious, Animal Rights
I'm not even sure what to write about. I have been so fucking emotional lately. Not like, in a bad way, just, everything is making me kinda drip out the waterworks a little bit. I think I'm just sensitized because Eddie Guerrero, that wrestler I posted about, died. They are doing a tribute show to all on all the wrestling shows this week. It's been hard. I mean, I don't know why these has affected me so much. It's weird, it's someone who I've seen every week....sometimes twice a week since I was 13. And, someone who made me laugh, made my smile, someone who I knew his life story. Someone who I knew was humble, a good actor, a tremendously great wrestler....one of the few actual wrestlers left in WWE. I know all the people in WWE who were close to him, and I've seen that every week since I was 13. It's just, weird.
Last night on WWE Raw, they did the tribute show, and during the show, they showed videos of the wrestlers sitting down and talking about their memories of Eddie. Chris Beniot, a close friend of Eddie's and fellow FUCKING KICK ASS wrestler totally fucking lost it. At the beginning of the show, all the wrestlers stood on the ramp, behind Vince McMahon while he talked about Eddie and how much everyone was going to miss him. The first thing that struck me was that it really brought it home how great of a man this guy was because these big, burly, manly fucking men are literally balling over his death. BALLING. The fans balling, little kids crying their fucking hearts out. The crowd chanting "EDDIE! EDDIE!" It just...it was amazing to see. This man really impacted people's lives. Then, later on in the show, HHH was on the video. This is a man who I really don't have much respect for. I mean, he's a hard worker, but he has the reputation of being a glory hog, and it's not his gimmick, it's really him. Many people in the locker room don't like his big ego. I'm not fond of the man, but as he sat there, talking about Eddie, he started to cry too...and that's when I lost it. This man who can at times be downright disrespectful, a man who's so full of himself....and even he's crying. I started tearing up then, and when Stephanie McMahon came on and talked about how much Eddie loved his family, I started really crying. Face-in-my-hands crying. That's when I really realized that this was some real shit.
It was hard to make it through that show, just.....I can't believe how loved this man was. I mean, I liked him, and he was one of my favorites. But holy fuck, little kids who were fans balling?! Insanity.
I have been optimistic about dating though. I don't know why, I have no reason to be. I just figure "Ok, that's enough bullshit....now back to the optimism and living again." I had my few days of swearing and bitching and cynicism, now it's back to fucking business. I've been studying my ass off for my driving test. Hopefully back my birthday I'll have a license. *dances* But yeah, gotta pass the test first. But, I figure this will open the opportunity for even more guys to come after me. See, I'm with my Mama all the time. She takes me places, so what choice do I have? I see guys looking at me all the time, and I think part of the reason they don't come to talk to me is because Mama is always with me. And, I love her, but that's bullshit. I am gonna go out and have a damn social life! GO! GO! GO!
Can you guys tell I really want to find a good man to be in a relationship with? Is it painfully obvious? I fucking bet it is.
Monday in my Philosophy class, we watched a video about animal rights. And seriously, I want to care about animal rights, I really do. But, I just.....I can't. The whole time I'm watching this video, this is a video of cats getting boiled and skinned alive, goats thrown off a buildings and pigs getting injected with so many steriods that they are so fat they can't move, I feel the sympathy, but unlike a video about racism might do, the video doesn't not motivate me to do anything. And, I know this is very unpopular, hypocritcal, contradictory opinion....and it's probably the most conservative thing you will ever read on this page. But, my thought is this, and I'm not proud of this thought. But, I can't bring myself to really give a fuck. My thought is that we were at the bottom of the fucking food chain for millions of years. MILLIONS! We are now at the top of the food chain, that means, IT'S OUR TURN NOW FUCKERS!! We're animals.....animals just like them. We may have evolved, but deep down, we're still animals. We're at the top of the food chain, so we get to know whatever the fuck we want. I know, that's really horrible. But, it is what it is. We're at the top of the food chain now, they wouldn't show mercy on us, end of fucking discussion. At least I'm honest about being a hypocrite and a having a really stupid, wrong opinion. I could be like all these other fuckers and not admit I'm wrong. I know I'm wrong, and it doesn't make sense, but I really don't give a fuck what we're doing with animals, and last night I really enjoyed my chopped cow sandwich with a baked potato that had fried pig crumbled all over it. No really, I think the unnecessary suffering is wrong....but I'm still eating meat. I get more pissed off at PETA being fucking assholes to get their views across than I do at the actual unnecessary suffering. It's just another level of fundamentalism and psycho crap.
And by the way, I am so fucking disgusted today! Disgusted and pissed the fuck off!! I saw something on facebook just now that made my blood boil. I realized what happened with what's-his-face now. Why can't people just be fucking honest with me? THIS IS BULLSHIT! But, I don't feel like spending time on it on here. I must talk to Elisha about it later, that way I can laugh. But anyway, to recap:
Fuck PETA.
He's Just Not That Into You Daily Wake-Up Call
"Men, just like women, want to feel emotionally protected when a relationship starts to become serious. One way they do that is by laying claim to it. They actually want to say 'I'm your boyfriend' or 'I'd like to be your boyfriend' or 'If you ever break up with that who's not your boyfriend, I'd like to be your boyfriend.' A man who's really into you is going to want you all to himself. And why wouldn't he, hot stuff?"
Last night on WWE Raw, they did the tribute show, and during the show, they showed videos of the wrestlers sitting down and talking about their memories of Eddie. Chris Beniot, a close friend of Eddie's and fellow FUCKING KICK ASS wrestler totally fucking lost it. At the beginning of the show, all the wrestlers stood on the ramp, behind Vince McMahon while he talked about Eddie and how much everyone was going to miss him. The first thing that struck me was that it really brought it home how great of a man this guy was because these big, burly, manly fucking men are literally balling over his death. BALLING. The fans balling, little kids crying their fucking hearts out. The crowd chanting "EDDIE! EDDIE!" It just...it was amazing to see. This man really impacted people's lives. Then, later on in the show, HHH was on the video. This is a man who I really don't have much respect for. I mean, he's a hard worker, but he has the reputation of being a glory hog, and it's not his gimmick, it's really him. Many people in the locker room don't like his big ego. I'm not fond of the man, but as he sat there, talking about Eddie, he started to cry too...and that's when I lost it. This man who can at times be downright disrespectful, a man who's so full of himself....and even he's crying. I started tearing up then, and when Stephanie McMahon came on and talked about how much Eddie loved his family, I started really crying. Face-in-my-hands crying. That's when I really realized that this was some real shit.
It was hard to make it through that show, just.....I can't believe how loved this man was. I mean, I liked him, and he was one of my favorites. But holy fuck, little kids who were fans balling?! Insanity.
I have been optimistic about dating though. I don't know why, I have no reason to be. I just figure "Ok, that's enough bullshit....now back to the optimism and living again." I had my few days of swearing and bitching and cynicism, now it's back to fucking business. I've been studying my ass off for my driving test. Hopefully back my birthday I'll have a license. *dances* But yeah, gotta pass the test first. But, I figure this will open the opportunity for even more guys to come after me. See, I'm with my Mama all the time. She takes me places, so what choice do I have? I see guys looking at me all the time, and I think part of the reason they don't come to talk to me is because Mama is always with me. And, I love her, but that's bullshit. I am gonna go out and have a damn social life! GO! GO! GO!
Can you guys tell I really want to find a good man to be in a relationship with? Is it painfully obvious? I fucking bet it is.
Monday in my Philosophy class, we watched a video about animal rights. And seriously, I want to care about animal rights, I really do. But, I just.....I can't. The whole time I'm watching this video, this is a video of cats getting boiled and skinned alive, goats thrown off a buildings and pigs getting injected with so many steriods that they are so fat they can't move, I feel the sympathy, but unlike a video about racism might do, the video doesn't not motivate me to do anything. And, I know this is very unpopular, hypocritcal, contradictory opinion....and it's probably the most conservative thing you will ever read on this page. But, my thought is this, and I'm not proud of this thought. But, I can't bring myself to really give a fuck. My thought is that we were at the bottom of the fucking food chain for millions of years. MILLIONS! We are now at the top of the food chain, that means, IT'S OUR TURN NOW FUCKERS!! We're animals.....animals just like them. We may have evolved, but deep down, we're still animals. We're at the top of the food chain, so we get to know whatever the fuck we want. I know, that's really horrible. But, it is what it is. We're at the top of the food chain now, they wouldn't show mercy on us, end of fucking discussion. At least I'm honest about being a hypocrite and a having a really stupid, wrong opinion. I could be like all these other fuckers and not admit I'm wrong. I know I'm wrong, and it doesn't make sense, but I really don't give a fuck what we're doing with animals, and last night I really enjoyed my chopped cow sandwich with a baked potato that had fried pig crumbled all over it. No really, I think the unnecessary suffering is wrong....but I'm still eating meat. I get more pissed off at PETA being fucking assholes to get their views across than I do at the actual unnecessary suffering. It's just another level of fundamentalism and psycho crap.
And by the way, I am so fucking disgusted today! Disgusted and pissed the fuck off!! I saw something on facebook just now that made my blood boil. I realized what happened with what's-his-face now. Why can't people just be fucking honest with me? THIS IS BULLSHIT! But, I don't feel like spending time on it on here. I must talk to Elisha about it later, that way I can laugh. But anyway, to recap:
Fuck PETA.
He's Just Not That Into You Daily Wake-Up Call
"Men, just like women, want to feel emotionally protected when a relationship starts to become serious. One way they do that is by laying claim to it. They actually want to say 'I'm your boyfriend' or 'I'd like to be your boyfriend' or 'If you ever break up with that who's not your boyfriend, I'd like to be your boyfriend.' A man who's really into you is going to want you all to himself. And why wouldn't he, hot stuff?"