they call this place cloud 9, and now i know why.
i am so blissed out right now.
i have the whole butterflies in the stomach,
blood rushing to the cheeks and making them warm,
dizzying sense of uncontrollable happiness thing
that seems to make everything blurred and dreamy,
colorful and romantic.
this is called never wanting to let go.
i hope this doesn't end,
and though it's unrealistic...
i'm going to keep hoping.
after all having high hopes is what i do best.
but this is something that i want.
something that i've wanted.
my heart is going about a billion miles per hour,
and my stomach is doing teeny tiny excited flips.
i can't stop smiling.
and right now, i don't really ever want to.
"you're the one.
the one i want by my side--
when all of my dreams come true...
its you. it's you"
:one tree hill.
i know it's just a cheesy television quote, but i think it is the epitome of really telling someone how much you love them. i may not be at love yet, or even very close, but i'm going to hang on to hope until there isn't any to hang on to. realistically, maybe i won't get to the love point in all of this; maybe, i will never get passed being stalled at the infatuation of being completely smitten with someone. for right now though, there is all the hope in the world, and i seem to be getting more and more reasons to feel this way. So maybe, one day this will all mature to that fanciful love scenario with an impending future of perfection, but maybe it won't. at this very second though, all i can say is, maybe, for either possible ending to the story. when i get the courage i will test my ability to steer this course the way i hope that it goes. you see, i've been holding in all of my feelings. one day i will decide to stop holding them in, so that i can let them go. if i find the strength to finally release myself, then maybe that quote...that quote that so perfectly depicts the feeling of love for another person, will actually apply to me. that day isn't today though, so until that day comes, i'm just going to keep having so much fun, because i am so happy. you know, it's cool here on cloud 9, but i'm still trying to figure out why i'm so surprised that it feels this great. is it because it has been so long since i felt this way, or is it because i've just never been here at all. i don't know, and i don't care. nothing matters but this moment, and in this moment i'm elated. i don't need anything intense or completely serious right now. i don't need to over analyze right now, have drama, or any of the problems that i have ever been made to worry about in other situations from my past. i just need to take it all in. i'm soaking up this happiness, and man, does it feel great.
i have the whole butterflies in the stomach,
blood rushing to the cheeks and making them warm,
dizzying sense of uncontrollable happiness thing
that seems to make everything blurred and dreamy,
colorful and romantic.
this is called never wanting to let go.
i hope this doesn't end,
and though it's unrealistic...
i'm going to keep hoping.
after all having high hopes is what i do best.
but this is something that i want.
something that i've wanted.
my heart is going about a billion miles per hour,
and my stomach is doing teeny tiny excited flips.
i can't stop smiling.
and right now, i don't really ever want to.
"you're the one.
the one i want by my side--
when all of my dreams come true...
its you. it's you"
:one tree hill.
i know it's just a cheesy television quote, but i think it is the epitome of really telling someone how much you love them. i may not be at love yet, or even very close, but i'm going to hang on to hope until there isn't any to hang on to. realistically, maybe i won't get to the love point in all of this; maybe, i will never get passed being stalled at the infatuation of being completely smitten with someone. for right now though, there is all the hope in the world, and i seem to be getting more and more reasons to feel this way. So maybe, one day this will all mature to that fanciful love scenario with an impending future of perfection, but maybe it won't. at this very second though, all i can say is, maybe, for either possible ending to the story. when i get the courage i will test my ability to steer this course the way i hope that it goes. you see, i've been holding in all of my feelings. one day i will decide to stop holding them in, so that i can let them go. if i find the strength to finally release myself, then maybe that quote...that quote that so perfectly depicts the feeling of love for another person, will actually apply to me. that day isn't today though, so until that day comes, i'm just going to keep having so much fun, because i am so happy. you know, it's cool here on cloud 9, but i'm still trying to figure out why i'm so surprised that it feels this great. is it because it has been so long since i felt this way, or is it because i've just never been here at all. i don't know, and i don't care. nothing matters but this moment, and in this moment i'm elated. i don't need anything intense or completely serious right now. i don't need to over analyze right now, have drama, or any of the problems that i have ever been made to worry about in other situations from my past. i just need to take it all in. i'm soaking up this happiness, and man, does it feel great.