--days after...
--Everything is going pretty good. Last night I went out with Crystal, Kyle, and John. We went to C-ville and had a really good time. We came back to IGA and it was really good to see everyone again. Ryan came up there and we talked, but he really surprised me. I figured he would fight everything and try to get back together, but he didn't. He told me he agreed with everything I said, and that I was doing what was best for me. He even said that if I even tried to get back with him right now he wouldn't because he knew it wasn't what I wanted and I would just be trying to smooth things over. I know he is upset but he is so understanding about it all. He said as long as I was happy then he was happy. He wiped away the tears and we promised to keep in touch. We talked more about it and what all he was thinking that night. He trusted me and that kept him from getting mad at me about it all. I know in a few weeks everything will probably be back to the way it always had been in high school. We are still going to hang out and stuff. He'll still be the one to take me fishing and stuff like that. Although I'm not to sure how he's family took it and even if they ever want to see me again. He never really would say. I told he it would all be like we were, just without all the lovey-dovey stuff. Of course thats what he wanted but he knows I wasn't happy. I told him him being happy was more important to me. He disagreed of course. We wrapped up out conversation, hugged, he kissed me on the forehead, and we walked our separate ways. I'll probably call him Sunday sometime. I'm really glad I got to see him. I was need a hug from him and to know that he understand and was ok. I think everything will go back to like it was the best it can and we will be fine!
--The lesson I have learned from all this is... I have to worry bout what makes me happy and not everyone else. I will consider people's feelings, but I can't base my decision strictly on everyone else's feelings. There are too many people in this world to please, and I'm only one person, and I just can't do it. It's time for Paige, and I'm going to take as much as I need. I'm sorry is this offends anybody, but I have been worrying more about other people than myself. Like Ryan keeps telling me... "You worry too much!" I'm going to keep that in mind!!
Well I have to straighten up the house a little bit, and start on the Hawaii scrapbook...
just me..
paige
--The lesson I have learned from all this is... I have to worry bout what makes me happy and not everyone else. I will consider people's feelings, but I can't base my decision strictly on everyone else's feelings. There are too many people in this world to please, and I'm only one person, and I just can't do it. It's time for Paige, and I'm going to take as much as I need. I'm sorry is this offends anybody, but I have been worrying more about other people than myself. Like Ryan keeps telling me... "You worry too much!" I'm going to keep that in mind!!
Well I have to straighten up the house a little bit, and start on the Hawaii scrapbook...
just me..
paige