My Thoughts
I went to the beach today. I know, I know, I told everyone I was going saturday no matter what. I lied, unintentionally. I didn't get to go saturday and it made me sad :( My ultimate happy place, as most of you well know, is the beach. I can't get enough of it no matter the season or what the weather is like. Sometimes I fantasize about ditching classes just to go to the beach, but that would be irresponsible. But really, if you had one day you could play hookey, what would you do? What kind of day would be your ideal day to play hookey?
I would do it on a rainy day, but a rainy day where the sun was shining. I'd go to the beach (of course), not just any beach though, my favorite beach. I'd love to be able to just wander the beach on a rainy, sunny day, alone, or with my dog. It would be peaceful. I'm usually one of those people that calls and texts people 24/7 to get them to hang out, again, a lot of you already know that :P But lately, I enjoy my own company, my own thoughts. I like being alone where I can just relax and reflect on things, to simply enjoy time instead of hearing someone nag "I'm bored! :( Let's go!!!" I hate that. I hate hearing those words. Yea, we all get bored from time to time, but maybe if you'd sit down in silence for a while and have a conversation with yourself about your philosophy of... everything... you wouldn't be so bored. I know, I say "I'm bored," a lot too when I'm out... Like when I'm at the mall, or just lazing around with someone, couped up in a house. But when I'm at the beach, that's my spot, that's the only place I can't get bored even if I had nothing to do but sit on a lump of sand for 10 hours straight. I could never be bored. Doesn't everyone have a spot like that? Their favorite spot where everything just seems to all suddenly fall into place, and you can't do anything but smile?
I think everyone should have that special little spot. I treasure my special spot. I take people there that I care for when they let me, or people that make me happy, or whom I trust. Those sorts of people. I want to share it with them, even if they don't enjoy it to the same degree, or even if they don't understand what it means to me.
I've always loved the beach. Ever since I was little. My grandpa would take us all. My grandma, mom, and brother. And there was always this calmness, this sort of inner joy that washed over me the minute the beach was in eye sight. But I had to feel it, I had to be there or it would be nothing more than a tease. A tease that was untollerable to me.
I would never live at the beach though, or at least not for quite a while. It would take away from it's meaning to me, and my spot would be lost. You have to be able to endure the everyday hectic life, to suffer and to sacrifice, to become frustrated, you have to experience all those things to find your spot, I think. If lifes perfect for you.. then the whole world is your spot... and then no one has a spot.
I know not too many people will read this, or maybe they'll read it, but not bother to acknowledge that they've read it. Someone will read this post and not understand what I'm talking about, or perhaps think I'm silly for such thoughts. Maybe someone will even think something horrible about me, just for this post. But I can't say that I'd care. I went to my special spot today, and tomorrow, when life gets hectic and frustrating, and I have to sacrifice sleep to do everything I must do... I'll be thinking about my special little spot, and I will smile, because soon enough I'll be back where everything seems right.
-_orgasminpants