Crappy news

[_orgasminpants]

So today Corey told me he didn't want to pursue a relationship with me, because he was reminded of what kind of relationship he wanted. The pathetic thing is, he described to me the exact kind of relationship I was looking for. And yes, after some tears and a chat with Mouse, I realized that this was the best thing that could have happened. I learned my life lesson and I'm moving on. I realized that Corey is an asshole in a lot of ways, he doesn't really care for anyone but himself and his dog and that he's not the sort of guy I really want. He was close to the kind of guy I want, but he wasn't quite up to par. I want someone who cares for others, isn't mooning over his engaged best friend, and who is sensitive. Someone who will listen to me when I am ready to talk, not when their ready to listen. Someone who will take it slow with me and respect my privacy. And those things he just didn't have in his favor.

I am going to remain friends with him, my talk with Mouse has made me realize that all he really could ever be is a friend. And that's all. The ideal of him was what I wanted, and in some ways I wanted him too. Yet, it just wasn't meant to be and I'm perfectly fine with that. As Mouse said, one day I will find the person I'm suppose to be with, and she told me I really will know who he is the instant I see him.

I feel good. I realized that what I gained from Corey was a good friend in a person I didn't expect to find it in. Mouse. She is more than I ever expected, and she is a truly great person, especially after what she did for me today.

-_orgasminpants