Tonight/This Morning
It was great. Liz and Daine and I hung out. We went to Lake Elizabeth when it was closed and played around on the jungle gym and all that crazy stuff. Skulked about while Liz was going skizo and talked about dead hobos and a serial killer after us, and because I kept saying, "Whos that behind you" and "what's that over there" Daine pointed out that if this were a horror movie I would be the friend no one would believe when something really was following us, etc. lol.
And then we went for coffee and junk at Bay Street, which was cool. Reminisced and talked and all that good stuff. Then went to get Apples to Apples from Liz's house, but she didn't have her key and her parents were asleep so that was screwed, but we decided to come back to my house and look for games. We pulled out Skipbo, Monopoly and Twixt but only played the first two. Twixt we shall save for later. It was awesome though. It was a lot of fun and Daine didn't know how to play skipbo so Liz and I taught her. Liz kicked our asses in both games. She had both boardwalk and Park Place and killed us. I fortunately manged to avoid those two properties mostly, one way or another. And none of us would really trade any properties or anything xD lol
There's nothing like being with friends. It's been the most fun I've had for a while. We played till like 3:30am. It was cool. Being with friends makes me forget the stuff that makes me sad and upset, I have fun. Yet, as per usual it came time for them to leave and I was left alone with my thoughts once more. And although I can say I had fun today, I'm still worried about the same things. And one in particular scares the crap out of me. And the other frustrates me to the point that I want to scream. Yet, I remain hopeful for both circumstances, because without hope I would be a pessimist and we don't want that lol. I hope my life works itself out sooner or later (hopefully sooner), because I'm tired of living with this knot in my stomach. But I know, if nothing else, I'll have tech. And it will help fill a void, if any void is created in any area of my life. It's hard though, since I'm a very impatient person and there are circumstances to all things that are going 'wrong' that I have no control over. I suppose if things don't work out, I'll have learned a life lesson (?).
One of the things that always help to keep me going is the song from All American Rejects "Move Along". The basic message from the song is that you have to keep going no matter what's going wrong in your life, cause eventually (not saying it'll happen any time soon) things will right themselves and everything WILL be okay. Music can give hope. And this song in particular has given me hope many times when I felt down.
I am excited to get back to tech though. When I'm teching, no matter who's frustrating me, or what's going wrong with the show, I feel alive. And that's important. I know this semester is going to be hectic and demanding, but it's going to be so beneficial. I feel terrible for letting people down half way through Peter Pan, but unfortunately there were things happening that I once again had no control over: being sick, over exhaustion, under fed, among other things. I need my body and mind in top condition though, because what's really going to matter is this semester. Please, god, let me make it xD
-_orgasminpants
And then we went for coffee and junk at Bay Street, which was cool. Reminisced and talked and all that good stuff. Then went to get Apples to Apples from Liz's house, but she didn't have her key and her parents were asleep so that was screwed, but we decided to come back to my house and look for games. We pulled out Skipbo, Monopoly and Twixt but only played the first two. Twixt we shall save for later. It was awesome though. It was a lot of fun and Daine didn't know how to play skipbo so Liz and I taught her. Liz kicked our asses in both games. She had both boardwalk and Park Place and killed us. I fortunately manged to avoid those two properties mostly, one way or another. And none of us would really trade any properties or anything xD lol
There's nothing like being with friends. It's been the most fun I've had for a while. We played till like 3:30am. It was cool. Being with friends makes me forget the stuff that makes me sad and upset, I have fun. Yet, as per usual it came time for them to leave and I was left alone with my thoughts once more. And although I can say I had fun today, I'm still worried about the same things. And one in particular scares the crap out of me. And the other frustrates me to the point that I want to scream. Yet, I remain hopeful for both circumstances, because without hope I would be a pessimist and we don't want that lol. I hope my life works itself out sooner or later (hopefully sooner), because I'm tired of living with this knot in my stomach. But I know, if nothing else, I'll have tech. And it will help fill a void, if any void is created in any area of my life. It's hard though, since I'm a very impatient person and there are circumstances to all things that are going 'wrong' that I have no control over. I suppose if things don't work out, I'll have learned a life lesson (?).
One of the things that always help to keep me going is the song from All American Rejects "Move Along". The basic message from the song is that you have to keep going no matter what's going wrong in your life, cause eventually (not saying it'll happen any time soon) things will right themselves and everything WILL be okay. Music can give hope. And this song in particular has given me hope many times when I felt down.
I am excited to get back to tech though. When I'm teching, no matter who's frustrating me, or what's going wrong with the show, I feel alive. And that's important. I know this semester is going to be hectic and demanding, but it's going to be so beneficial. I feel terrible for letting people down half way through Peter Pan, but unfortunately there were things happening that I once again had no control over: being sick, over exhaustion, under fed, among other things. I need my body and mind in top condition though, because what's really going to matter is this semester. Please, god, let me make it xD
-_orgasminpants