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I do go to update a lot, I just decide what I'm typing is utter nonsense so I don't hit "Update Journal". I mostly write things in the heat of the moment that I know I'll be embarrased about later on. I don't feel I contribute enough to be able to read everyone elses LJ's. I'll try my best to make a habit of updating for the new school year. Scary, isn't it? Going back, I mean. Well, for me. My chest goes all tight and I get nervous thinking about being in fifth year. When I was going into first year, most of Primary 7 was spent with me lying in my bunk bed worrying about going into first year. I kept thinking about leaving my friends behind and moving on. I didn't want to have to make a big step, and I've always been like that. I get scared about taking the plunge, whether it be literally when I'm about to go into a pool or with changes that happen to me. Thinking back, I remember being worried about all sorts. Getting scared when I started wearing ladies' sized clothes instead of "Age", Christmas time, coming back from holidays, all of it. In other words, I'm a scaredy cat. Yellow bellied. Couldn't say boo to a goose, and many more analogies.
I have no idea where that all came from, but it does feel nice to write it. I'm up alone at the moment, thinking and wanting to watch South Park, how strange. I had a Kenny teddy. I got it from Scott one year. It's my birthday on the 31st, I don't think I'll be getting much from my parents. They're doing up the house just now, and they already got me my T in the Park ticket. I don't mind too much, but there's a little part in everyone ( I hope) that wants to wake up on their birthday and see their present and card sitting on the dining table ( in my case, anyway).
Jagged Little Pill Acoustic was £3 in Fopp. She even did an acoustic of "Forgive me Love", the secret track on the end of " Wake Up", which gave me a little thrill and a smile. There is so much reading to be done, there are three books I have that I want to read and another that I borrowed from Pauline today, which is actually her friend Ben's, that I need to give her on Monday. So far it has been pretty funny.
Somebody interesting has come online, so I'm going to go. I don't mean somebody I like or anything, HA. Just a couple of good people to talk to.
I have no idea where that all came from, but it does feel nice to write it. I'm up alone at the moment, thinking and wanting to watch South Park, how strange. I had a Kenny teddy. I got it from Scott one year. It's my birthday on the 31st, I don't think I'll be getting much from my parents. They're doing up the house just now, and they already got me my T in the Park ticket. I don't mind too much, but there's a little part in everyone ( I hope) that wants to wake up on their birthday and see their present and card sitting on the dining table ( in my case, anyway).
Jagged Little Pill Acoustic was £3 in Fopp. She even did an acoustic of "Forgive me Love", the secret track on the end of " Wake Up", which gave me a little thrill and a smile. There is so much reading to be done, there are three books I have that I want to read and another that I borrowed from Pauline today, which is actually her friend Ben's, that I need to give her on Monday. So far it has been pretty funny.
Somebody interesting has come online, so I'm going to go. I don't mean somebody I like or anything, HA. Just a couple of good people to talk to.