VENT over dumb broads.
Ok, I'm only going to vent this so it's out of my system. There's this huge part of me that hates how I feel about this particular thing. It literally kills me inside. I'm usually able to drown out these worthless feelings that only put a negative strain on my life, but I just gotta get this off my chest so I can breathe a bit easier.
I hate her. And I don't ever hate anyone. But I hate her. I only see a conniving, manipulative, down-right terrible person in her. She's more fake than a white girl's tan in the middle of winter. She acts all nice in the beginning, like she wants to help you, but then she finds something threatening to her about you and she's pretty much out to get you.
Like when she told her brother that I was "flirting" with her boyfriend. She really tried to make me look bad in front of him. Thank God he has a mind of his own and he could see that I wouldn't ever do that, especially not in front of him. It's sad these days when being nice is such a rarity that people mistaken it for flirting. SMH.
I hate that I ever cared about her. I hate that I'm pretty sure there's still a part of me that still does, hence why I can't shake her out of my head.
I read over our old Gchats and emails. I miss how she was there, even if it was fake. I miss how even if she's mad at me, she'll still take a second to listen to me if I cry or fail my NCLEX.
I hate how she's always fishing for compliments. Like no one cares about the purse your boyfriend bought you or that you got your roots done. If people aren't complimenting you first, they did not notice nor do they care.
I hate how she's fighting with her brother and tells me we can't be friends. Like wtf did I do? Why does she have to unfriend me on facebook? I guess it's fine since we were never really real friends to begin with.
It just hurts, I guess. You think so highly of a person, you really look up to them. You even lose friends for them and they just treat you like crap. They just completely drop you like you meant nothing to them. And that hurts.
I keep telling myself, I just need to forgive and re-forgive her every day. I just need to let go. But some days she just gets to me without her even doing anything. Maybe it's because she came by the house the other day. Who knows.
"Life becomes easier when you accept an apology you never got."
Well, I'm trying. There's my rant. Hopefully I can just dismiss these feelings and let it go. Again.
Just gotta pray on it. I know.
I hate her. And I don't ever hate anyone. But I hate her. I only see a conniving, manipulative, down-right terrible person in her. She's more fake than a white girl's tan in the middle of winter. She acts all nice in the beginning, like she wants to help you, but then she finds something threatening to her about you and she's pretty much out to get you.
Like when she told her brother that I was "flirting" with her boyfriend. She really tried to make me look bad in front of him. Thank God he has a mind of his own and he could see that I wouldn't ever do that, especially not in front of him. It's sad these days when being nice is such a rarity that people mistaken it for flirting. SMH.
I hate that I ever cared about her. I hate that I'm pretty sure there's still a part of me that still does, hence why I can't shake her out of my head.
I read over our old Gchats and emails. I miss how she was there, even if it was fake. I miss how even if she's mad at me, she'll still take a second to listen to me if I cry or fail my NCLEX.
I hate how she's always fishing for compliments. Like no one cares about the purse your boyfriend bought you or that you got your roots done. If people aren't complimenting you first, they did not notice nor do they care.
I hate how she's fighting with her brother and tells me we can't be friends. Like wtf did I do? Why does she have to unfriend me on facebook? I guess it's fine since we were never really real friends to begin with.
It just hurts, I guess. You think so highly of a person, you really look up to them. You even lose friends for them and they just treat you like crap. They just completely drop you like you meant nothing to them. And that hurts.
I keep telling myself, I just need to forgive and re-forgive her every day. I just need to let go. But some days she just gets to me without her even doing anything. Maybe it's because she came by the house the other day. Who knows.
"Life becomes easier when you accept an apology you never got."
Well, I'm trying. There's my rant. Hopefully I can just dismiss these feelings and let it go. Again.
Just gotta pray on it. I know.