Bin Laden, feeling like a jerk, birthday lunch, best bud time.
First off, I'd like to post that Osama bin Laden was killed and the world was told yesterday. Mixed feelings entered my mind when I read the news from Don who texted it to me. I was busy with my family that day and hadn't been online or anything to have heard the news... but more on that later. Anyways, all I kept thinking was "So is the war over?" or "Are the troops able to come home now?" It also made me think of Don. He only joined the National Guard when he started Med School, so he hasn't been deployed yet or anything, but I'm just hoping he won't have to by the time he's done with school and residency. That always scares me. I feel rather mixed as far as feelings go. He caused 9/11 to happen and deserves a terrible life, but I'm not sure if death was exactly the way for it to be. I still don't know exactly all the details of what happened, I just know he's dead.
Also, I felt like a jerk today while I saw Don. I know he has it a lot harder than I do, but I just miss him so much and I won't get to see him that much this week. Yesterday he didn't come to my family birthday lunch celebration because I told him not to the night before. So Saturday night, he was so stressed about all his exams and such for Monday that I told him to stay home. It's the day before his cumulative respiratory exam, his ACLS testings, and super week #2... he'd just be stressed out the whole time he was here, he'd be here for like half an hour and he'd have wasted all that time driving here and back home. It was just the smart thing to do and I just didn't want him to be here stressed out. He needs to feel better than that the day before his exams. Plus, it gave me awesome girlfriend points!!! He was so grateful, too, which I'm glad to hear! I know how much he wanted to be here and that in itself meant the world to me, but he knew he had a lot to do still.
Mom felt bad, but she knew he was going to do well. She knows he's smart and she's always proud to hear that he's doing well in school. She made sure to save him a plate of her kabobs and to make sure we had enough extra k-bbq, she also made another batch of stuffing and salad for him today so he could try everything. She saved the rest of the mash and gravy for him as well. It was really nice of her to save all that food for him.
Lunch yesterday was somewhat awkward and quite tiring. Don't get me wrong, I was glad to see everyone, but I was just so tired from the day before and I was really missing Don there. I feel like I don't know how to act sometimes when he's not around... like something's not right with me or maybe just because I felt like someone was missing. Jay-R was the last to come by and everyone left. It was nice to have a chill time with him. He bought me a cake again which was so sweet of him. He always gets me a cake! And he got me a shirt from AX. Then he left and all was good and dandy.
Today, Don was able to come over after his crazy day to eat all the scrumptious food. I could tell he was satisfied! Then we studied... sorta. It was nice to get some time with him. I gave him a foot and head rub to relax him a bit. Then we stretched. Yeah -- random, but anything other than studying is always a great time! I like to touch him. Not down there, but just in general. I like when our knees touch and I like when he randomly puts his hand on my back... or I'll do it to him. I like it because it reminds me that he's really there, right next to me, in my life. And I can just appreciate that moment and it's nice.
Also, I felt like a jerk today while I saw Don. I know he has it a lot harder than I do, but I just miss him so much and I won't get to see him that much this week. Yesterday he didn't come to my family birthday lunch celebration because I told him not to the night before. So Saturday night, he was so stressed about all his exams and such for Monday that I told him to stay home. It's the day before his cumulative respiratory exam, his ACLS testings, and super week #2... he'd just be stressed out the whole time he was here, he'd be here for like half an hour and he'd have wasted all that time driving here and back home. It was just the smart thing to do and I just didn't want him to be here stressed out. He needs to feel better than that the day before his exams. Plus, it gave me awesome girlfriend points!!! He was so grateful, too, which I'm glad to hear! I know how much he wanted to be here and that in itself meant the world to me, but he knew he had a lot to do still.
Mom felt bad, but she knew he was going to do well. She knows he's smart and she's always proud to hear that he's doing well in school. She made sure to save him a plate of her kabobs and to make sure we had enough extra k-bbq, she also made another batch of stuffing and salad for him today so he could try everything. She saved the rest of the mash and gravy for him as well. It was really nice of her to save all that food for him.
Lunch yesterday was somewhat awkward and quite tiring. Don't get me wrong, I was glad to see everyone, but I was just so tired from the day before and I was really missing Don there. I feel like I don't know how to act sometimes when he's not around... like something's not right with me or maybe just because I felt like someone was missing. Jay-R was the last to come by and everyone left. It was nice to have a chill time with him. He bought me a cake again which was so sweet of him. He always gets me a cake! And he got me a shirt from AX. Then he left and all was good and dandy.
Today, Don was able to come over after his crazy day to eat all the scrumptious food. I could tell he was satisfied! Then we studied... sorta. It was nice to get some time with him. I gave him a foot and head rub to relax him a bit. Then we stretched. Yeah -- random, but anything other than studying is always a great time! I like to touch him. Not down there, but just in general. I like when our knees touch and I like when he randomly puts his hand on my back... or I'll do it to him. I like it because it reminds me that he's really there, right next to me, in my life. And I can just appreciate that moment and it's nice.