So i think

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that im the only person that reads what i write. Which is a good thing. I need to keep to myself as much as possible. Anyways i really cant get over what happened with those two girls. I dont understand why im hurt so bad by it, why i cant sleep anymore because of the urge to find something, why i keep searching for something so worthless and something i will never even get. I dont derserve anything, i have nothing special about me and everyone realizes that quick. Im a mess on the inside probally worse then ive ever been in my life and because of that my outside is standing as strong as ever, but im crumbling and both in and out and i need to find something to revitalize me and give that energy back to me.

Im too emotional.
GAH!