its been a while
i havent written for over a week....
ive been angsty lately...
since i turn 20 in um...3 weeks? and im trying to rid myslelf of all this "teenage angst"
i know i will probably still be angsty..but as of now, im pretending to just be rid of it... and be angst free.
im ignoring the "today" and looking forward to later on down the road, my fake "everything is fine and good" life...instead of my....im having a good day and one bad thought brings everything crashing to a halt. damn.
becky and i were talking about this last night... and i wanted to put it somewhere else...she made valid points, yes....but damn if i cant stop thinking about it.
stupid girl....meaning myself.
i still just DONT KNOW.
: lights a cigarette and walks away quietly :
NEko.
ive been angsty lately...
since i turn 20 in um...3 weeks? and im trying to rid myslelf of all this "teenage angst"
i know i will probably still be angsty..but as of now, im pretending to just be rid of it... and be angst free.
im ignoring the "today" and looking forward to later on down the road, my fake "everything is fine and good" life...instead of my....im having a good day and one bad thought brings everything crashing to a halt. damn.
becky and i were talking about this last night... and i wanted to put it somewhere else...she made valid points, yes....but damn if i cant stop thinking about it.
stupid girl....meaning myself.
i still just DONT KNOW.
: lights a cigarette and walks away quietly :
NEko.