The Fucking Bad News Bear.....
ok....so this sucks a lot.
to start everything off....i got evicted from my apartment...no more place i call home...just when i DID have a place that i called home it was taken right from under my feet....what the fuck.
and i got a call tuesday morning...from my sister, they have been looking for me, cause they couldnt find me....she says, "elise, you need to come be with the family now"....so i knew something bad had happened...so i ask her whats wrong, and she told me my grandmother passed away last night at the hospital....she was in bad shape to begin with, she kept falling and getting more and more hurt, and this last time she had blood clots in her brain....NOT good....so....i have no more grandparents....i cant believe it....i feel so lost....i was so close with them both....i just lost my grandfather a few days before my birthday in july...and now this....i know, i shouldn't be too upset, shes with her husband now right? they were married for over 50 years....she couldnt live without him....i understand that....but its just not fair...i love her so much...i love my poppop so much...i feel like a little kid again....lost and not sure what to do...lost in the grocery store full of strangers....she was an amazing woman...and she told the best stories....always making us laugh even in the worst situations....every time i came over she would say "let me see you, do you have any more of those darn tattoos or piercings?" grinning cause she knew i probly did...and even though she didnt approve, she would give me a kiss and tell me she loved me....i want more time with her...and my pop pop...i sound greedy....im sure this will pass....but its still so soon....its impossible for me to be ok right now....but wow....i dont even know what to say....ok im getting upset...time to stop talking about this....
on a different note, I have to give up my kitties....Reagan and Devlin....cause i cant keep them anymore...and the ferrets that were allisons/kinda sorta mine and i loved them all dearly are gone too...to the SPCA, at least they will go to a good home, cause ferrets dont stay that long....
so im staying at my friend jenny's house since she graciously said yes to letting me be here for a bit...and i deeply owe her huge...she rocks.
ok....still getting all emotional and upset....but i had to get it out....
NEko....
to start everything off....i got evicted from my apartment...no more place i call home...just when i DID have a place that i called home it was taken right from under my feet....what the fuck.
and i got a call tuesday morning...from my sister, they have been looking for me, cause they couldnt find me....she says, "elise, you need to come be with the family now"....so i knew something bad had happened...so i ask her whats wrong, and she told me my grandmother passed away last night at the hospital....she was in bad shape to begin with, she kept falling and getting more and more hurt, and this last time she had blood clots in her brain....NOT good....so....i have no more grandparents....i cant believe it....i feel so lost....i was so close with them both....i just lost my grandfather a few days before my birthday in july...and now this....i know, i shouldn't be too upset, shes with her husband now right? they were married for over 50 years....she couldnt live without him....i understand that....but its just not fair...i love her so much...i love my poppop so much...i feel like a little kid again....lost and not sure what to do...lost in the grocery store full of strangers....she was an amazing woman...and she told the best stories....always making us laugh even in the worst situations....every time i came over she would say "let me see you, do you have any more of those darn tattoos or piercings?" grinning cause she knew i probly did...and even though she didnt approve, she would give me a kiss and tell me she loved me....i want more time with her...and my pop pop...i sound greedy....im sure this will pass....but its still so soon....its impossible for me to be ok right now....but wow....i dont even know what to say....ok im getting upset...time to stop talking about this....
on a different note, I have to give up my kitties....Reagan and Devlin....cause i cant keep them anymore...and the ferrets that were allisons/kinda sorta mine and i loved them all dearly are gone too...to the SPCA, at least they will go to a good home, cause ferrets dont stay that long....
so im staying at my friend jenny's house since she graciously said yes to letting me be here for a bit...and i deeply owe her huge...she rocks.
ok....still getting all emotional and upset....but i had to get it out....
NEko....