well i'll try and explain
So this week of trying not to talk or even think about Oscar has been so hard..
Its only been 4 days since we've talked, but thats THE longest i have gone without talking to him in 2 years!
its so hard to go to sleep without hearing him or him telling me goodnight, or hearing an "I Love You" when the days over....
I've been going to sleep before 10:00 so i dont stay up waiting for a call, or thinking if i should call, or just stay up thinking about memories.
Its so hard...I do feel good, just for the reason of Im actually being strong this time,
but i just wish it wasnt this way...
I think about him....and just wonder if hes thinking about me too, if he wonders if he should call me, or even wants anyhting at all to do with me....
But it sucks when i go to sleep and all my dreams are about him, talking on the phone with him...even getting back together with him, i wake up and feel so happy....
but then realize it was just a dream....
I think all i need is to go out and hang with friends...so if anyone wants to...give me a call