Letters to myself.

[_monster]

Please don’t act surprised. He has told you before that he was going to leave you. You were right, telling him that if anyone was going to end this relationship it was going to be him sooner or later. There was no reading in between the lines there; you knew full well that you were the only one that was going to get hurt. And you took it for what it was worth.

I am sorry for ever having faith in you.

I am sorry for trusting you.

I am sorry for always hoping for the best.

I am sorry never telling you how much you mean to me.

I am sorry if you ever felt unappreciated, you are more than enough for me.

I am sorry for not hugging you or kissing you as much as I should have.

I am sorry for never telling you how in love I am with you.

Its funny how I made an effort to not repeat mistakes from past relationships and it still manages to blow up in my face. I feel like someone took a dull knife to my chest, cut my heart out to throw it on the ground and stomped violently on it and eventually put it back it its rightful place not the way it was first found.

I wish only the best for you, Shane Scott Lavery.