just as i thought, not a good day
the dayz are adding up. bad day after bad day.
will u ever stop noticing all my flaws and start noticing all my efforts and waht good i actually have? maybe u do, i just dont feel that u do. it just feels like all u do is see me for my wrongs. - this goes for more then 1 person.
the scratch at the back of my throat wont go away. it hurts at times, feels like im bleeding inside. maybe i do need to go to the doc soon. maybe this time the doc can give me an actual fkin check up not just look at me and say ur fine tht will be 20 $'s. With my luck i get something that will kill me (doesnt knock on wood). but i guess i still just wanna be healthy.
Y cant u understand that i dont try to play games? I dont try to hurt u. I dont fish for anything when i am simply asking a question. I dont say "no what i meant was" just cuz im trying to not lose an arguement but only cuz i try to correct myself, and or be more clear with what i meant for i can see something one way and comprehend it in one way, but some1 else who is hearing it can understand it totally diff. when i continue with the same topic i do it to make sure i was clear enough and to see if u understand where im coming from, and i continue to see if u will say anything to show me u do understand or even care for that matter. I hopelessly wait for u to say something and not for me to talk to myself. But when u do say something its always an attack at me and how i have repeated myself or how u know i was ganna say that. I know what u r ganna say most of the time as well, so dont play with me. That whole thing about u knowing waht i was ganna say next, well what can i say, *clap clap* i salute u. i know what ur ganna say plenty of times, its called knowing each other enough as friends not playing games. just understand that all i ever wanted was to make u happy and inturn i would be happy. but u wouldnt believe that. not coming from me. u dont believe me on anything or dont accept anything i say. yet u would accept something that a no1 said. well im sorry but ill say what i believe is true and what i wanna say time and time again, u dont have to believe me in waht i say. but if u really did KNOW me well enough, u wouldnt have to finish my sentences when we argue, just understand my truth and my words when i say them. And believe in me cuz i dont give u any reason not to.
i just came from a vacation and i wish more then anything that i could go on another one. that i could never have came back maybe. usualy i like coming baq from vacation cuz im a loser and i like playing games on my comp or shit like that. this time i had a few reasons for wanting to return. But now i wish i can jsut be away from it all. just 4get it all. i actually miss my time away a lot. it was better before i left... we dont know what we had till its gone.
will u ever stop noticing all my flaws and start noticing all my efforts and waht good i actually have? maybe u do, i just dont feel that u do. it just feels like all u do is see me for my wrongs. - this goes for more then 1 person.
the scratch at the back of my throat wont go away. it hurts at times, feels like im bleeding inside. maybe i do need to go to the doc soon. maybe this time the doc can give me an actual fkin check up not just look at me and say ur fine tht will be 20 $'s. With my luck i get something that will kill me (doesnt knock on wood). but i guess i still just wanna be healthy.
Y cant u understand that i dont try to play games? I dont try to hurt u. I dont fish for anything when i am simply asking a question. I dont say "no what i meant was" just cuz im trying to not lose an arguement but only cuz i try to correct myself, and or be more clear with what i meant for i can see something one way and comprehend it in one way, but some1 else who is hearing it can understand it totally diff. when i continue with the same topic i do it to make sure i was clear enough and to see if u understand where im coming from, and i continue to see if u will say anything to show me u do understand or even care for that matter. I hopelessly wait for u to say something and not for me to talk to myself. But when u do say something its always an attack at me and how i have repeated myself or how u know i was ganna say that. I know what u r ganna say most of the time as well, so dont play with me. That whole thing about u knowing waht i was ganna say next, well what can i say, *clap clap* i salute u. i know what ur ganna say plenty of times, its called knowing each other enough as friends not playing games. just understand that all i ever wanted was to make u happy and inturn i would be happy. but u wouldnt believe that. not coming from me. u dont believe me on anything or dont accept anything i say. yet u would accept something that a no1 said. well im sorry but ill say what i believe is true and what i wanna say time and time again, u dont have to believe me in waht i say. but if u really did KNOW me well enough, u wouldnt have to finish my sentences when we argue, just understand my truth and my words when i say them. And believe in me cuz i dont give u any reason not to.
i just came from a vacation and i wish more then anything that i could go on another one. that i could never have came back maybe. usualy i like coming baq from vacation cuz im a loser and i like playing games on my comp or shit like that. this time i had a few reasons for wanting to return. But now i wish i can jsut be away from it all. just 4get it all. i actually miss my time away a lot. it was better before i left... we dont know what we had till its gone.