dont read...it really is a pity party.
things that may not seem to be a big deal...but build up to a suicidal crash
this is not a pity party...but if I dont type something I am going to kill someone.
first...went to work not feeling well
2. got sick
3. Ben had to leave.
4. there is no food in the house. i just asked if my mother would simply stop at a store on her way home and get bread and milk. instead i was yelled at.
5. me and geoff were just talking and somehow got into an arguement...I leave feeling like an ass cause he asks why i am IMing him so much. I just needed someone to talk to. apparently I apoligize too much.
6. i was just IMing bethany...things i said were depressing and bitter...but I wasnt in the greatest mood. she snapped at me and signed off becuase I am a shitty friend.
7. left here...alone...with no one to talk to. and the thing is is that its my fault.
I just feel like I am talking in some completely different language and no one can fucking understand me. no one wants to talk to me...but I think that some how the things I say come off in a completely wrong way. I dont know what to say anymore. I dont know what to do anymore. my mom told me to move out. all i do is eat her food. i feel really useless. i am really useless.
this is not a pity party...but if I dont type something I am going to kill someone.
first...went to work not feeling well
2. got sick
3. Ben had to leave.
4. there is no food in the house. i just asked if my mother would simply stop at a store on her way home and get bread and milk. instead i was yelled at.
5. me and geoff were just talking and somehow got into an arguement...I leave feeling like an ass cause he asks why i am IMing him so much. I just needed someone to talk to. apparently I apoligize too much.
6. i was just IMing bethany...things i said were depressing and bitter...but I wasnt in the greatest mood. she snapped at me and signed off becuase I am a shitty friend.
7. left here...alone...with no one to talk to. and the thing is is that its my fault.
I just feel like I am talking in some completely different language and no one can fucking understand me. no one wants to talk to me...but I think that some how the things I say come off in a completely wrong way. I dont know what to say anymore. I dont know what to do anymore. my mom told me to move out. all i do is eat her food. i feel really useless. i am really useless.