hello 2010
I'm not quite sure what I'm doing anymore. I am trying my damnedest to evaluate myself and my decisions and make sure I'm doing what's right for me without compromising myself in the process. I'm just not positive I know what I'm doing.
I am in love with him, but I don't know how he feels. I know I need to have the "what are we" conversation, but I don't really want to. I just want things to go back to how they were.
I want to live with him like fucking crazy, like plans were up till November, and then something got all fucked up, but I'm hoping we're back on track maybe? He still needs to take me to see Daybreakers and stop telling me I can't handle it.
I hate my job with a fucking passion. He is the only reason I bother going. I need something else, but everything has done such a 180 I don't know if I can up and change something else too. I know i need to, but actually doing it hasn't happened yet. I don't want just another job, I want to get into my career.
I finally started school like forreal. And it's only been the first week, but I think/hope it's gonna go very well this time. I only have 1 class I'm not sure about yet, but I wanna prove the professor wrong already, so I'm gonna make sure I get the highest grade in the class.
I'm trying to actively lose weight. I'm at like 180, and I'd like to be 135-140. So hopefully by June I should be there.
I just want to be loved as much as I love, and to be able to show such publicly if I so feel the need. I want to succeed. I want to be allowed to simply be me and openly express who and what and how I am.
I am in love with him, but I don't know how he feels. I know I need to have the "what are we" conversation, but I don't really want to. I just want things to go back to how they were.
I want to live with him like fucking crazy, like plans were up till November, and then something got all fucked up, but I'm hoping we're back on track maybe? He still needs to take me to see Daybreakers and stop telling me I can't handle it.
I hate my job with a fucking passion. He is the only reason I bother going. I need something else, but everything has done such a 180 I don't know if I can up and change something else too. I know i need to, but actually doing it hasn't happened yet. I don't want just another job, I want to get into my career.
I finally started school like forreal. And it's only been the first week, but I think/hope it's gonna go very well this time. I only have 1 class I'm not sure about yet, but I wanna prove the professor wrong already, so I'm gonna make sure I get the highest grade in the class.
I'm trying to actively lose weight. I'm at like 180, and I'd like to be 135-140. So hopefully by June I should be there.
I just want to be loved as much as I love, and to be able to show such publicly if I so feel the need. I want to succeed. I want to be allowed to simply be me and openly express who and what and how I am.