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Everything just sucks.
I feel out of control? If that makes sense. Not out of control like I'm losing control of myself but like I'm not in control of what's going on around me. I guess I'm not. I wish I was because then maybe shit wouldn't suck right now.
So my brother's best friend is in the hospital. She has two broken legs, a shattered pelvis, a collapsed lung, and something else that I can't remember right now. She had 5hrs of surgery yesterday, and 14 more tomorrow. That's just great right?
I'm just so frustrated with everything. I'm fuckin 19yrs old and I've been to more funerals than I can even remember. Shouldn't there be a rule against that?? The majority of my friends have either only been to their grandparents funerals, or never been to one at all. I feel like I'm a magnet to these things.
I wish I had control over just ONE aspect of my life.. family, friends, work, love... just ONE. That would be nice.
I never write in this thing except when I'm like mad or feeling sorry for myself.
Blah.
I don't want school to start a week from tomorrow. I need more time off. That'd be great.
I haven't kept track of my checkbook in like 2 weeks I need to do that soon. I just never seem to have the time to sit down and do it. I also need to do like 18 loads of laundry. And tonight I have to cook supper... I dunno what I'm making though.
I feel like a forty yr old after that paragraph. I might as well get married and pop a few out at this point. But I think you need a boyfriend to accomplish both of those things... so until then....
I suck.
I feel out of control? If that makes sense. Not out of control like I'm losing control of myself but like I'm not in control of what's going on around me. I guess I'm not. I wish I was because then maybe shit wouldn't suck right now.
So my brother's best friend is in the hospital. She has two broken legs, a shattered pelvis, a collapsed lung, and something else that I can't remember right now. She had 5hrs of surgery yesterday, and 14 more tomorrow. That's just great right?
I'm just so frustrated with everything. I'm fuckin 19yrs old and I've been to more funerals than I can even remember. Shouldn't there be a rule against that?? The majority of my friends have either only been to their grandparents funerals, or never been to one at all. I feel like I'm a magnet to these things.
I wish I had control over just ONE aspect of my life.. family, friends, work, love... just ONE. That would be nice.
I never write in this thing except when I'm like mad or feeling sorry for myself.
Blah.
I don't want school to start a week from tomorrow. I need more time off. That'd be great.
I haven't kept track of my checkbook in like 2 weeks I need to do that soon. I just never seem to have the time to sit down and do it. I also need to do like 18 loads of laundry. And tonight I have to cook supper... I dunno what I'm making though.
I feel like a forty yr old after that paragraph. I might as well get married and pop a few out at this point. But I think you need a boyfriend to accomplish both of those things... so until then....
I suck.