Bam Margera
If I'm not sad. Then I'm angry. But today I'm sad. And I'll tell you why. The topic, as always, is....
Bam Margera I'll try not to make this rant a long one. But I'm going to try to let everything out, even if I start crying ( Read more... )
Bam Margera I'll try not to make this rant a long one. But I'm going to try to let everything out, even if I start crying ( Read more... )
The greatest tragedy in life is that we can't control who we love. Even the most reasonable and rational people in the world love someone who they know they shouldn't. Even people who love someone who is good for them, and who loves them back, still love people they shouldn't.
I am one of those people. Even though my boyfriend is an amazing man, I love someone who I know I will never meet, and someone I wish I could forget. The heart is a strange organ, it wants what it wants even if that want is the most unhealthy thing in the world. And where our brain may want to stop thinking about this person, talking about this person, and everything, our heart will MAKE us think about them, MAKE us talk about them, MAKE us want to spend time with them, and there's nothing we can do. Love always makes you feel like an idiot, even when it's your boyfriend, because love MAKES you an idiot.
Do you think I would put on silly voices and meow at somebody who I wasn't in love with? HELL NO!
But it IS healthy that you've realized that you may never meet Bam. Beleive it or not, there are probably thousands of girls out there who REALLY TRULY beleive they will end up with Bam. So at least you have acceptance over them.
And I hate to say this, because I know how much I hated it, but you're still young. I know that at 16 you might feel like you know everything you need to know and you are who you are, period. But you aren't finished changing. Nowhere near it. And over the next few years is when you will start to become Erica the woman, instead of Erica the girl. Not everyone goes through this growth, but you remind me very much of myself when I was your age, and I'm sure that you'll start to REALLY find out who you are soon. And I know I'm only 2 years older than you, and you're probably like 'Who is this kyfe, and what does she know?" but really, 2 years is a world of difference.
Erica, I know it's hard to accept this, and deal with your feelings from day to day, but things WILL get better, no matter how bleak they may look now.
And no matter what all the poems and songs say, love is not worth dieing for. Nothing is worth dying for, life is far to precious, even if you can't see it now.
I know I've been a bit unreachable lately, but all if you need me, all you have to do is e - mail me. I check my messages every day. I'm here for you Erica, I care about you.
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