ain't nothing wrong. ain't nothing right. and still i sit and lay awake all night.

[_miller_time_]

hey ya'll. i guess it's been some time since i've updated this thing. to those of you who actually read it, i appologize. to be honest, the only reason i'm doing it right now is because i need to write and i'm closer to my computer than to a piece of paper. everyone has left, or is in the process of leaving, for college. one minute i'm sad, and the next happy. i don't depart until sunday morning. i remember when i had to say goodbye to aly and timbo. tears arose in my eyes, and although it's disappointing to be unable to see them at my leisure, i am comforted to know they are both okay. i take refuge in that thought. i'm hoping that perhaps leaving my home, the beach, my boyfriend, my family, my cat, and my remaining friends won't be as awful as i may have anticipated some time ago. then again, nights like tonight make me think differently. don't get me wrong, i am very excited to meet new people and embark on a new journey. i have hopes that the next year will most certainly be a promising one. i'm just afraid for today, for tomorrow, for yesterday. it's sad to think i can't retreat to the nights when my basement was filled with the best friends i have ever, or probably will ever have. still, i'll try and be optimistic and say that i am happy that i can trace those times back in my memory. i really am. and if i had a glass of champagne i'd raise my glass and make a toast to the hope of many more to come. good luck everyone, and remember: home is not a place in the world, but rather a place in the heart. you all have a home in me.

many memories
miller