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I just realized that my journal must seem pretty damn lame. I only update when I am down...so it must appear I am sad a lot. I realized that honestly right now I am probably the happiest I have ever been, so I decided I should let everyone know that the reason my entries seem so depressive is because that is the only time I ever update. Complaining to a computer is way easier than complaining to a person. I am almost semi excited for school to start. Mostly because none of my friends go to school with me, so I wont have to concern myself with other people. Some of the people from my past still like to talk about me, but I guess they need someone to center there gossip around. If it makes things better for them then I suppose it isn't hurting anyone. I think I changed a lot this summer, and I am able to enjoy myself a lot more. Although last year might have seemed choppy at the time it was way worth it. Surrounding myself with people on a higher level has helped out a lot. I guess what I needed all along were friends that were older than me... I relate much better to them, and then there is Amber who is wise beyond her years. I am not to sure why I update LJ anymore seeing as there are probably about 3 people on my friends list I am still friends with, but hey whatever at least I have something to do at 2 in the morning. I should probably get to bed now; I will try an give realistic life updates more often.