(no subject)
you ever feel like you want something so bad..something so incredible that you know would make you live your life just a little bit differently? then having said something taken away? although it wasnt really taken away because it was never yours to begin with, but still, the very promise of it just faded, and the fact that it isnt yours burns through your very being. and that your sad, and dissappointed because of it.....or maybe just angry. its funny cause.....what i want is something tangible, but now i dont know if i should have it anymore. even though i want it so much. even though not having it feels insane. but now it just feels weird to me. now i just dont know. now i feel like i lose either way, and everything just feels not fair. i want to cry. i want to rage. but i just sit silently,because honestly, there's nothing i can do.