worst day in a while
keep in mind im pms-ing.
today is one of the worst days ive had in quite a while. everything was going so good.. and now everything good has stopped. all i can do is sit here and fucking cry.. and that makes me even more upset because im being retarded. brandon wont talk to me at all.. and it hurts because i just wanted to be friends.. guess that wont happen. i keep feeling like all i do is annoy people.. and its like been confirmed now because nobody talks to me. i feel so fucking alone. i havent felt this alone since august. lately i keep thinking 'what have i done'. i dont want to drink anymore. i quit smoking. sometimes i just wish i could go back to how things used to be. i feel fucking horrible. and now, nothing can change. everything that has happened has totally changed me.. and i cant go back. i feel so lonely. this is the first day in god knows how long that ill ive done is go to work, come home, and stay home the whole night. its making everything five million times worse. i cant stand this.
today is one of the worst days ive had in quite a while. everything was going so good.. and now everything good has stopped. all i can do is sit here and fucking cry.. and that makes me even more upset because im being retarded. brandon wont talk to me at all.. and it hurts because i just wanted to be friends.. guess that wont happen. i keep feeling like all i do is annoy people.. and its like been confirmed now because nobody talks to me. i feel so fucking alone. i havent felt this alone since august. lately i keep thinking 'what have i done'. i dont want to drink anymore. i quit smoking. sometimes i just wish i could go back to how things used to be. i feel fucking horrible. and now, nothing can change. everything that has happened has totally changed me.. and i cant go back. i feel so lonely. this is the first day in god knows how long that ill ive done is go to work, come home, and stay home the whole night. its making everything five million times worse. i cant stand this.