charleston, my darling, you're always and forever mine.
ohhh can't sleep. going home in the morning. don't wanna/kinda excited. i'm going to miss it so much here and seeing everyone i want all the time and walking outside and feeling the amazing weather even when its cold or rainy. i'm going to miss the people on the streets and the feeling you get when everything is more perfect than anywhere else you can think of even if it's not. i'm going to miss my real family and close relatives and all of our kin but i know they're there for me forever and i would do anything for any one of them. and strangers/acquaintances i've met somewhere but can't quite put a finger on it. and finding new things that are really old things and walking on cobblestones and climbing trees sometimes. and exploring alone and running into favorite people. and card games and long walks and party hosting. and ice cream scooping and adding to the ridiculousness of this place. and of course the hobos and my favorite customers and coworkers. and having way too much fun and DANCING. and watching beyonce live and sunday fundays and family dinnertime. and swapping stories and getting secrets out. and acquiring bruises. and being attacked sometimes. and creepy cat and figaro and little freshman boys and musical events and and being led around when i don't know where i'm going. and daydreaming and real dreaming and real life and the moments when those dimensions become the same thing and having new things to daydream about. and having little to no responsibility for a chunk of my life and running with it. running away and running off to live here. and now i know that chapter is ending but i'm not completely sad about it. because i'm not losing anything, or anyone. i'm so thankful for everyone in my life and how meaningful they all make it. and they're family. blood brothers and sisters, forreal. and the rest of them are really something special too. and i have so many more stories to add to my collection, all of them happy. memories i get to keep forever. things better than things, some things i can share with people who helped me make them. even if i don't remember them myself. thats why i need them so they can make my stories make sense. i couldn't have expected this time of my life to be any better. i'm leaving all of my babies in good places i think. they know where to find me. we all truly do take care of each other, we honestly always have and certainly always will. so much love. i have to leave it in this incredible town that will always have my heart. in a way, i couldn't be happier. there's just so much love.