clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight.
No matter how hard I try I just can't seem to bring myself to delete this journal.
So for now, I will say that I am doing well in school. I'm in my 3rd year and it feels good to know that I'm nearing the end. Well.. that's if you count being a 5th year senior nearing the end. Either way, I love my classes and they're finally at a point where they're all geared towards becoming a teacher. I have to go back to Berkley to observe a teacher for a day, which is both amusing and exciting, seeing as I feel like I just left there. Regardless, it'll give me a chance to see high school from the other side of the desk. I'm excited to play teacher for a day.
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My relationship with Ryan hasn't failed to be anything less than incredible. I was really having a hard time for the first few weeks having to drive home to see him. I felt physically worn out from the drive to Ortonville and back, emotionally drained from the 7 hours I would be by myself with nothing to entertain me but shitty radio and my own thoughts. I've gotten over the distance though, and that has allowed me to step back and appreciate everything we are to eachother. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, and lord does that boy have me wound. I can do, say, think anything I want to and he doesn't judge me. I can drink and be a total mess, embarrassing myself to the point of no memory, and he'll still bring me water and hold me if I'm sick. I'll wake up in the morning looking and feeling like shit, and he'll insist that I look beautiful. I hate to brag about this, but damnit I deserve to because I'm finally happy with someone who knows everything about me and loves me regardless. I know it's only been 5 months or so. But little things, like holding my hand when we're in the car or giving me a back massage out of nowhere still mean the world to me.
Plus he's in a band. Oh shit. =)
Photo by Megan Lang.. whom I also love.
Life is good. It feels nice to say that and know that it isn't bullshit.
So for now, I will say that I am doing well in school. I'm in my 3rd year and it feels good to know that I'm nearing the end. Well.. that's if you count being a 5th year senior nearing the end. Either way, I love my classes and they're finally at a point where they're all geared towards becoming a teacher. I have to go back to Berkley to observe a teacher for a day, which is both amusing and exciting, seeing as I feel like I just left there. Regardless, it'll give me a chance to see high school from the other side of the desk. I'm excited to play teacher for a day.
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My relationship with Ryan hasn't failed to be anything less than incredible. I was really having a hard time for the first few weeks having to drive home to see him. I felt physically worn out from the drive to Ortonville and back, emotionally drained from the 7 hours I would be by myself with nothing to entertain me but shitty radio and my own thoughts. I've gotten over the distance though, and that has allowed me to step back and appreciate everything we are to eachother. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, and lord does that boy have me wound. I can do, say, think anything I want to and he doesn't judge me. I can drink and be a total mess, embarrassing myself to the point of no memory, and he'll still bring me water and hold me if I'm sick. I'll wake up in the morning looking and feeling like shit, and he'll insist that I look beautiful. I hate to brag about this, but damnit I deserve to because I'm finally happy with someone who knows everything about me and loves me regardless. I know it's only been 5 months or so. But little things, like holding my hand when we're in the car or giving me a back massage out of nowhere still mean the world to me.
Plus he's in a band. Oh shit. =)
Photo by Megan Lang.. whom I also love.
Life is good. It feels nice to say that and know that it isn't bullshit.