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ugh i knew there was a reason why i always kept this icon on my livejournal =[
amanda = most miserable person alive, but does anyone else see it? nope. im a good faker but i need to fucking stop. i NEVER tell people how i feel and i hold just about everything inside so i don't become a damn doormat. fuckkkkk.
anyways, im at jessica's house and um wednesday was rachel d's party.. it was fun and it took my mind off alot of stuff. i took pics =] and saw a buncha people. then after i went with my dad and we went out to eat and back to his house so he could gimmie my moms mail. hmm the rest of the night i was on the phone doing prank calls with miss lumley because we have alot of time on our hands and have nothing better to do. it was really funny tho and my stepbrother was looking at me like i was on crack or something cause i was laughing uncontrollably. i guess thats good to do after not being yourself for like a half a month. anyways, yesterday [thursday] i got my computer back and everythings gone so i went crazy trying to find people that saved some of my away messages and stuff but i got alot of them back and i still have to load this disk into my computer with all my music and pictures on it. i hope all of its still on there *keeping fingers crossed* okay well pretend i never said that because thats bad luck, well everytime i ever did it, it was. oo well. lol. and i slept at jessica's yesterday and we went to the park on the swings and walked passed weird kids that said something to us but i couldn't hear them and yeahh whats some good places to have sex? haha o yes jessica on a tanning bed..golf course.. etc haha we have alotta time on our hands i suppose. but yeah, right now jessica and everyones outside and im sitting here constantly seeing if the same persons online for like the millionth fucking time. ughhhhh. tonight i think im going to the movies with monika and then saturday i might go to this carnival in shelton with lindsay. hopefully i'll actually do what im saying im supposed to. but nothing ever works out.. at least not anymore with anything lol. but im gonna go outside and then im getting picked up in like a half hour. byeeeee<33
i wish my life would just go back to the way it was before =/
xO0O0Ox* amanda
amanda = most miserable person alive, but does anyone else see it? nope. im a good faker but i need to fucking stop. i NEVER tell people how i feel and i hold just about everything inside so i don't become a damn doormat. fuckkkkk.
anyways, im at jessica's house and um wednesday was rachel d's party.. it was fun and it took my mind off alot of stuff. i took pics =] and saw a buncha people. then after i went with my dad and we went out to eat and back to his house so he could gimmie my moms mail. hmm the rest of the night i was on the phone doing prank calls with miss lumley because we have alot of time on our hands and have nothing better to do. it was really funny tho and my stepbrother was looking at me like i was on crack or something cause i was laughing uncontrollably. i guess thats good to do after not being yourself for like a half a month. anyways, yesterday [thursday] i got my computer back and everythings gone so i went crazy trying to find people that saved some of my away messages and stuff but i got alot of them back and i still have to load this disk into my computer with all my music and pictures on it. i hope all of its still on there *keeping fingers crossed* okay well pretend i never said that because thats bad luck, well everytime i ever did it, it was. oo well. lol. and i slept at jessica's yesterday and we went to the park on the swings and walked passed weird kids that said something to us but i couldn't hear them and yeahh whats some good places to have sex? haha o yes jessica on a tanning bed..golf course.. etc haha we have alotta time on our hands i suppose. but yeah, right now jessica and everyones outside and im sitting here constantly seeing if the same persons online for like the millionth fucking time. ughhhhh. tonight i think im going to the movies with monika and then saturday i might go to this carnival in shelton with lindsay. hopefully i'll actually do what im saying im supposed to. but nothing ever works out.. at least not anymore with anything lol. but im gonna go outside and then im getting picked up in like a half hour. byeeeee<33
i wish my life would just go back to the way it was before =/
xO0O0Ox* amanda