recital hearing recap, &c.
I passed my recital hearing, although I didn't play very well. I need to wait till I'm a little more removed from the situation and in a more reasonable mental state before I analyze what went wrong--I think it was the combined result of a lot of little factors. In spite of my shoddy performance today, I'm still confident that I'll be prepared for the recital in a few weeks. I'm also struggling with a few minor and easily-resolvable relationship issues right now, so I've let a little bit of control of my life slip away, which naturally is making things worse.
The effect of all this is that I ended up with a kinda crappy and not-entirely-rational outlook this afternoon and evening. I'm holding out hope that tomorrow I will find it in myself to take steps to improve my mental state and rein my environment and my schedule back into control. This might be a challenge since my Fridays are so busy--and tomorrow is certainly no exception--but I know I am resilient enough that things will improve all on their own by Saturday at the latest.
The effect of all this is that I ended up with a kinda crappy and not-entirely-rational outlook this afternoon and evening. I'm holding out hope that tomorrow I will find it in myself to take steps to improve my mental state and rein my environment and my schedule back into control. This might be a challenge since my Fridays are so busy--and tomorrow is certainly no exception--but I know I am resilient enough that things will improve all on their own by Saturday at the latest.