life is strange
the mouth is healing just fine, thanks for asking (those of you that have). been really busy the last month just trying to get myself together, failing horribly, and deciding to blow it all off and act like a kid, having fun, not worrying about the important stuff, ect. it's starting to bite me in the ass, though.
i need to organize with a vengeance. make a budget, stick to it, various projects about the house, gothcoming outfit, stuff like that. all the little things that pile up and threaten to drown me. like how i should be going to the gym, practicing the bass, spending more time with my friends...but i don't have the energy for any of it. it feels like my life is just passing me by and i have nothing to show for it. i know i'm not special by any stretch with things like this, but it seems like other people have a better grasp on the day to day than i do. if i can get through work and not feel like i've been hit by a truck, it's been a good day. i need 8 more hours each day and the energy of a 4 year old.
it's been a strange week, and it's only wednesday. things are in a serious state of flux. i hate flux. i hate change of any kind. i don't know what the future holds in store for me, at least on a personal level. work will always be work, but not having a decisive plan of action with the rest of my life just wears me down. problem is, i don't even know what i want to do at this point. why can't things just stay happy and simple?
or maybe i'm just being a hyper-sensitive, hormonal wreck with really low blood sugar. fuck if i know anymore.
anyway, how the hell is everyone else?
i need to organize with a vengeance. make a budget, stick to it, various projects about the house, gothcoming outfit, stuff like that. all the little things that pile up and threaten to drown me. like how i should be going to the gym, practicing the bass, spending more time with my friends...but i don't have the energy for any of it. it feels like my life is just passing me by and i have nothing to show for it. i know i'm not special by any stretch with things like this, but it seems like other people have a better grasp on the day to day than i do. if i can get through work and not feel like i've been hit by a truck, it's been a good day. i need 8 more hours each day and the energy of a 4 year old.
it's been a strange week, and it's only wednesday. things are in a serious state of flux. i hate flux. i hate change of any kind. i don't know what the future holds in store for me, at least on a personal level. work will always be work, but not having a decisive plan of action with the rest of my life just wears me down. problem is, i don't even know what i want to do at this point. why can't things just stay happy and simple?
or maybe i'm just being a hyper-sensitive, hormonal wreck with really low blood sugar. fuck if i know anymore.
anyway, how the hell is everyone else?