Homecoming was kick ass!
Damn I had so much fun last night. I danced for like all but 5 songs. At first I danced with Megan and her friends. Then I danced with Brizz, Mindy, Adam, and Megan. Then me and Adam slow danced. Then Ricky came and found me. And we slow danced. Then we ended up dancing together for the rest of the night. And it was a bunch of fun. But it was so freakin hot! EH! But i didn't care, good songs came on and i wanted to dance to them. But i think that Ricky likes me. Like he asked me for my number. And well i gave it to him, and he gave me his. And he was trying to kiss me but i kept avoiding it. I felt bad cuz i knew he wanted to. But I' not a cheater. But i did kiss him on the cheek. I guess that was kinda bad of me. But i dunno. He was kissing me on my neck and he kissed my hand. It was so sweet. And I dunno what to do. I almost want to have a break from Tony. I mean like to make sure he is the right guy for me. I mean he was my first b/f. And well what if i just think i love him or like i don't feel the same way he feels about me. But Tony sent me an e-mail a while ago saying...i asked god for a girl like you. Or something like that, and it was super sweet. But I dunno. But I don't know if I could tell Tony what I am writing here. And I dunno, maybe that tells me something. But a long ass time ago he said that "maybe you don't love me, maybe you just think you do because I'm your first b/f" And well I dunno ever since then he has made me think that. But a while ago he was talking to me about how Hess was taking a break from his friend and he said he would never want to do that with me because he would be jealous of any guy i was with. And ever since then i have been even weirder about telling him about how i feel. And in a way I wish he would figure out this address and read this and get me to talk about it. But i hate ppl being mad at me or being sad because of me. And telling him this might make him sad. And also like I dunno. What if i get my heart broken by another guy and i want to go back to Tony but he has found somebody better than me? Cuz that could no doubt happen. I mean i girl that is there for him and doesn't live in fucking Florida! Sry. I dunno this has been in my head for a while. And I mean i don't wanna make Tony the guy i go back to. Like my back-up or something. EH! Life can be so confusing! But I'm gonna go watch batman!