Why....
Hey,
Well I got back together with Tony. And I felt happy for the first day or so. But now...I wish I didn't get back together with him. I did need more time. And I have to tell him that. But I hate to have to tell him that. I love him. But I dunno, the distance is a killer. And well since we got back together, it just hasn't felt the same. And we didn't talk last night. I was talking to Ricky, I was expecting Tony to call and I was gonna hang up with Ricky. But Tony never called. And we were suppose to be acting like we were still broken up to my mom and Stacia. But my mom never knew that we broke up. And I was talkin to her today, and practically told her that me and Tony were still together. I mean I didn't fully come out and say it....but I was hinting at it. So Tony's plan is gone and done with. Unless I actually do brake up with Tony. I still want to talk to Stacia. I hate keeping secrets from her. And Tony is always gettng me to keep secrets from her. Which I don't like, but I never stop. But last night I did something stupid. I told Ricky I didn't have a boyfriend. And I do have a b/f. And well I also kinda hinted to him that I would kiss him under the bleachers on Friday at the game. Cuz he is actually coming to the game. And Adam likes me. Which sux, and Me and Deborah were talkin...it was soo funny. And I was suppose to stay quiet, but I couldn't help it...HAHA, it was great. But yeah, today I was standing in the lunch line with Justin, Adam, me and Charles. And They were talking about football and being retards. And when we got up to get our food. Justin noticed I was quiet and said i needed a hug. So we hugged and then he looked and me. Then he asked what was wrong. I said nothing. Cuz well all this is running through my head and I haven't even told you the biggest news. But so then I said nothing, and told him not to worry about it. He said he was gonna worry about it and kept giving me this look and asking what was wrong. I tried to ignore him, but he is hard to ignore. So then we sit at lunch and he is still every once in a while giving me the look. Brittany is starting to give me a funny look cuz she notices that Justin is giving me that look. So then I just keep eating, and well it was hard with Justin sitting right next to me giving me the look. And so yeah, then he left. And when i was watching him leave, he shook his head at me. Then I went on with lunch. Then I was walking back to the classroom, and I saw Justin waiting outside the door. I say hi, and he grabs me and said come here. So i followed him and Adam tried to follow but Justin gave him a look and threw something at him. So then he again asked me what was wrong. I again told him nothing. He said i was lying. And I told him he was right. So he told me to tell him and I said no. Then i asked him why all of a sudden he starting caring about me, why does he care. Then he told me that he was a caring person. I laughed at him and told him yeah right. Then we walked in the classroom. He again shook his head at me. Then I went and talked to Adam. Adam asked what was up, I said nothing and changed the subject. And I dunno it was just really weird that Justin decided to notice that I had something bothering me. But like, I dunno. But I never told Britt why Justin had been giving me that look. She will most likely read this....but I can explain it better in person. But oh, the other interesting news.....well Kelsey. Yes, another big problem with her. Well I know and so do many others, that she is having sex very often. And last I knew, she wasn't on birth control. Well for the last week she hasn't been feeling good in the morning. Like Wednesday, she was crying in American History, cuz she felt sick and she was having a bad day. And I dunno, I saw her later and I asked her how she felt. She said she felt fine. But then today I again asked her how she felt. She said that this morning she felt sick. But now she feels fine. Then she said something about how it was weird that she was only sick in the morning. And of course the first thing that pops into my head....she is pregnant. I really really hope that I am wrong. But I have this bad feeling that I am not. She is only 16 yrs old, that is way too young to have a baby. That is if she is pregnant and wants to keep it. I'm just really hoping I am wrong. Well I think that is all the fun news I have for now. So I'll go do homework....that sounds like fun! haha yeah right!
Well I got back together with Tony. And I felt happy for the first day or so. But now...I wish I didn't get back together with him. I did need more time. And I have to tell him that. But I hate to have to tell him that. I love him. But I dunno, the distance is a killer. And well since we got back together, it just hasn't felt the same. And we didn't talk last night. I was talking to Ricky, I was expecting Tony to call and I was gonna hang up with Ricky. But Tony never called. And we were suppose to be acting like we were still broken up to my mom and Stacia. But my mom never knew that we broke up. And I was talkin to her today, and practically told her that me and Tony were still together. I mean I didn't fully come out and say it....but I was hinting at it. So Tony's plan is gone and done with. Unless I actually do brake up with Tony. I still want to talk to Stacia. I hate keeping secrets from her. And Tony is always gettng me to keep secrets from her. Which I don't like, but I never stop. But last night I did something stupid. I told Ricky I didn't have a boyfriend. And I do have a b/f. And well I also kinda hinted to him that I would kiss him under the bleachers on Friday at the game. Cuz he is actually coming to the game. And Adam likes me. Which sux, and Me and Deborah were talkin...it was soo funny. And I was suppose to stay quiet, but I couldn't help it...HAHA, it was great. But yeah, today I was standing in the lunch line with Justin, Adam, me and Charles. And They were talking about football and being retards. And when we got up to get our food. Justin noticed I was quiet and said i needed a hug. So we hugged and then he looked and me. Then he asked what was wrong. I said nothing. Cuz well all this is running through my head and I haven't even told you the biggest news. But so then I said nothing, and told him not to worry about it. He said he was gonna worry about it and kept giving me this look and asking what was wrong. I tried to ignore him, but he is hard to ignore. So then we sit at lunch and he is still every once in a while giving me the look. Brittany is starting to give me a funny look cuz she notices that Justin is giving me that look. So then I just keep eating, and well it was hard with Justin sitting right next to me giving me the look. And so yeah, then he left. And when i was watching him leave, he shook his head at me. Then I went on with lunch. Then I was walking back to the classroom, and I saw Justin waiting outside the door. I say hi, and he grabs me and said come here. So i followed him and Adam tried to follow but Justin gave him a look and threw something at him. So then he again asked me what was wrong. I again told him nothing. He said i was lying. And I told him he was right. So he told me to tell him and I said no. Then i asked him why all of a sudden he starting caring about me, why does he care. Then he told me that he was a caring person. I laughed at him and told him yeah right. Then we walked in the classroom. He again shook his head at me. Then I went and talked to Adam. Adam asked what was up, I said nothing and changed the subject. And I dunno it was just really weird that Justin decided to notice that I had something bothering me. But like, I dunno. But I never told Britt why Justin had been giving me that look. She will most likely read this....but I can explain it better in person. But oh, the other interesting news.....well Kelsey. Yes, another big problem with her. Well I know and so do many others, that she is having sex very often. And last I knew, she wasn't on birth control. Well for the last week she hasn't been feeling good in the morning. Like Wednesday, she was crying in American History, cuz she felt sick and she was having a bad day. And I dunno, I saw her later and I asked her how she felt. She said she felt fine. But then today I again asked her how she felt. She said that this morning she felt sick. But now she feels fine. Then she said something about how it was weird that she was only sick in the morning. And of course the first thing that pops into my head....she is pregnant. I really really hope that I am wrong. But I have this bad feeling that I am not. She is only 16 yrs old, that is way too young to have a baby. That is if she is pregnant and wants to keep it. I'm just really hoping I am wrong. Well I think that is all the fun news I have for now. So I'll go do homework....that sounds like fun! haha yeah right!