a day not to be forgotten anytime soon...
So, yeah...I really don't know what to even write about, how can I even say anyting? The shit definitely hit the fan today. I can't even process what happened. I mean I believe it, it was inevitable, but really... Who'da thunk it would happen today? blahhhh... Everything will be different now, I can already tell. People are growing up, learning lessons, and figuring life out--- the hard way... And work sucks... it's just been endless lately, first with the whole strawberry mess. And now just lots of hours, and goody goody, Robert told me that this summer I'm gonna get "lots of hours" and he's gonna "work me to the bone." yahoo... I'm ecstatic. It's senior year and honestly it doesn't feel like that great of a year... I mean yeah, high school's almost done, thank fucking God, but what else, as Dave always asks. What else? What are we supposed to now? I mean really, who actually knows what they want in life at the age of 17? argh...all I know is I want life to stop spinning, and let me digest things one at a time. It's not easy being caught up in so much bullshit, and when can things be "gravy" again. So many people have had just shitty things happen lately, and I'm just waiting for my Karma to catch up to me. When will my life throw me for a loop? It's bound to happen sometime soon...
Why is it that some people receive all of life's pleasures and joy, and others only know the sorrow and shit that is thrown their way? And fucking Valentine's Day...what a fun holiday for all those happy couples. But really, who wants to spend Valentine's with someone they don't really "love?" I feel that that's just not fair to do, you shouldn't "trick" someone into thinking you like them that much. Valentine's should just be a day for reflection on all your failed relationships, or if you're in a happy relationship, a celebration. But why a whole holiday dedicated to isolating people? I don't know why I'm bitchin so much, my Valentine's really wasn't so unfortunate...
Blah...I just can't believe today...can't we just start it over and make all the right moves, or escape reality?
Why is it that some people receive all of life's pleasures and joy, and others only know the sorrow and shit that is thrown their way? And fucking Valentine's Day...what a fun holiday for all those happy couples. But really, who wants to spend Valentine's with someone they don't really "love?" I feel that that's just not fair to do, you shouldn't "trick" someone into thinking you like them that much. Valentine's should just be a day for reflection on all your failed relationships, or if you're in a happy relationship, a celebration. But why a whole holiday dedicated to isolating people? I don't know why I'm bitchin so much, my Valentine's really wasn't so unfortunate...
Blah...I just can't believe today...can't we just start it over and make all the right moves, or escape reality?