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so i havent updated in forever. i just needed to put that ive never been so upset or hurt as i am rite now. im completely alone. the one person that was supposed to always be with me, isnt. i gave everything i could for him, knowing better. knowing i would be like this if i didnt have him. and now that i dont, i never could have imagined how bad it feels. what i thought it would be like, its not. its so much worse then that.
i really do feel like i just wanna die.
on top of it all, i cant even go back to school til next week. way to go. i get to sit around and think about it, do nothing but think about it, but then again thats all id be doing anyways.
i wish it was all just a stupid bad dream, and everything will go back to the way it used to be when i wake up. but it wont. if anything, thats a dream
i really do feel like i just wanna die.
on top of it all, i cant even go back to school til next week. way to go. i get to sit around and think about it, do nothing but think about it, but then again thats all id be doing anyways.
i wish it was all just a stupid bad dream, and everything will go back to the way it used to be when i wake up. but it wont. if anything, thats a dream