the sickness
so i got sick after one weekend of too much sun and pickle vodka shots. its been a week and a half and im still sick. got a buzz on saturday with rory but otherwise its been sober sad times. cant tell if im startin to feel like myself or if the sickness is just skewin my perspective. id love to have a bunch of time off when i was well. this shit sucks. it sucks to eat. thats my favorite thing. so here i am 10lbs lighter than a month ago 5 of that from the sickness and 5 from drinkin dinner and sleepin less. on some levels i feel im being punished for my selfishness, on some i feel like its given me time to think tho that hasnt helped cept to remind me my overall goal is to work part time forever as it makes me a better and happier person. but ive gotten tons of sleep lately to no avail and some readin in. im happy and im sad, im lost and figurin things out. i gotta find a new place to live soon. i dont know what i want, but i bet ill know when i see it. i wanna be closer downtown and still have older roommies, maybe try somethin a bit more north in boulder near alpine mkt. thatd be cool i bet.
im gonna read more after i look at apts...
im gonna read more after i look at apts...