The sun is shining again

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As a few of you know, it has been a really rough past few weeks for Ben and I. To be honest, it's sucked a lot. Things are slowly working out though, I'm very glad to say. Hopefully going down there next weekend will help a lot. We'll get to see each other, and talk face-to-face. Which is definatly something we need to do. We both have a lot more

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yeah, chris and i were always "beating eachother up." he had a bunch of claw marks all over him from all the times that i scratched him. i wouldn't be surprised if he still has those scars today! i still have a scar on my leg from when corey accidently cut me, while me, him, desiree, and trish were all sitting in the woods. but, anyway, yeah, i do remember that time we spied on the boys... they weren't doing anything, except swimming, and i can't remember if they caught on to us spying on them, but i'm pretty sure they did. i'm glad you and i come as far as we have, although it hurts that we/i don't keep in touch with any of the others as much as i'd like. i mean, i talk to desiree every once in a while, but she never seems to want to talk to me and/or we never know what to say to eachother. i talked to richard and brian every now and then, too. but, that's about it. as i've said once before, chris and i wrote letters to eachother last summer, but i haven't heard much from him since. and i don't talk to corey and/or andrew. i haven't heard from them in years. last i heard, it was rumored that corey is going to be a father because he got his girlfriend pregnant or something, and that andrew dropped out of school and that he worked at domino's, although i'm not sure if he still does. i'm so glad that you and i are still friends. and i'm glad that not much has changed between us. i feel like i can't really relate to any of the others anymore, and, like i said, it seems like we never know what to say to eachother anymore, and it's quite sad. i would really like to talk to corey again someday (and perhaps andrew). corey was one of the best guys that i've ever met, and i feel like i ruined our friendship because some of the rude things i did... like the time he tried giving me a ring, right before i moved, but i didn't take it, and, even though he kept giving it back to me, i ended up throwing it at him, and i feel so horrible about that now. i feel like it's my fault that we lost touch because, even though we started dating again after i moved, i broke-up with him because of the long distance, and i feel like that's why we don't talk to eachother anymore, although i'm afraid that if we ever were to talk again, things would be awkward because, obviously, we've both changed a lot since then, and i'm scared things wouldn't be the same. i'm just depressed about this whole issue because i remember when you, me, and des would always talk about owning a house, and living together, and, obviously, that's never going to happen now. i miss that friendship that we all had so bad. i wish i was 14 again...

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Yeah, I definatly remember those days when you, Des, and I would sit around talking about where we would be years from then. It was great. The three of us spent just about every day together. But apparently she told an old friend of mine that I stole a dress of hers. I don't ever remember borrowing a dress from Des because I couldn't fit into them. The only one I borrowed was the silver one, remember? I don't know. I miss her though. She was a great friend. And fun to hang out with. But I think she sort of grew apart from us once she started hanging out with Nikki and them. And once she started dating Will, it was definatly all different from there. You and Corey dated again after you moved? I don't remember that, where the hell was I? Well then again, I didn't even know Des and Chris dated again. ::laughs:: I miss Chris a lot though. He was really a pain in the ass, but he was a great kid. He was so obsessed with boobs, especially Des'. It was hilarious. And the laundry mat, of all places, was the place we all hung out just about every night. How lame was that? We were all extremely close. Richard and I, Corey and you, Des and Chris, the boys were all really close, and so were us girls. Man, in a way I sort of wish we could go back to that. I definatly had some of the greatest friends then. But if you think of it, if we went back to then, neither of us would have our great boyfriends, new exciting friends, and who knows, we may not have stayed friends this long. I'm happy where I am right now. I do miss the old days, but if we had stayed there, we probably would have kids by now, right? ::laughs:: It's always nice to think about the past though. We had some amazing times. Remember hanging out the window just about every night? And that morning I woke you up to tell you we had no school. ::laughs:: that was funny. I still feel really bad. I'm sure that in his mind, Corey understand why you couldn't accept the ring. Oh god, remember when Des and Chris planned "their wedding" and Chris backed out? That was the weirdest day of all. And when they wanted to make a horror movie? Good times, good times

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yeah, i remember when i used to hang out with nikki and all of them, too... right before i started hanging out with you, and then des shortly followed, and we formed the group that we had (our group changed every now and then, it was seriously like a soap opera). after that, i didn't really enjoy hanging out with nikki and them anymore because they were always out causing trouble. plus, i felt like an outcast with them, and i just felt more comfortable hanging out with you guys... i still remember when you and i first started hanging out and becoming friends. you had told me you wanted to talk to me about something, and that was when you told me that andrew had a crush on me, and that he wanted to go out with me. lol. that was before he was "too cool" for us. and, yeah, corey and i dated again after i moved. it wasn't for long, though... maybe about a week or two. i remember talking to him on the phone one time, and he was at your house, playing with a tac. lol. that was a bit before we broke-up for the last time... something like that. i also remember, one time, when i came out to visit (i stayed at your house), it was flu season, and everyone was getting sick. richard was sick, corey was sick, and then i eventually became sick when i got home. i was so mad. lol. annnnd, i remember when we used to play truth or dare at the laundry mat. lol. that was such a little kid's game, but we always had so much fun anyway. but, i doubt that either of us would have kids if we still lived in riverton. i mean, of course we would have changed, and we'd probably be a different people than what we are right now (this talk sorta reminds me of 'butterfly effect,' lol). and, yeah, we probably wouldn't even be friends, but i doubt either of us would have kids... especially me because i was so prude back then. andrew and i didn't kiss until almost a year after we started going out (on and off, of course). it was so sad! lol. and, yeah, i remember how we used to always hang out the window to talk. that also makes me think of when the twins and my brothers would start a war of banging on the walls with eachother. lol. they were always arguing. i hardly remember the "wedding" desiree and chris planned, but i do remember him backing out, although i can't remember why. he was such an ass to her a lot of the times, although this second time that they dated (the recent relationship that they had), i heard that he was really good to her.

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Yeah, I remember that. I was hanging out with your sister back then. Nikki and them hated your sister. Man do you remember Amoon? Or however you spelt her name. That girl was a total douchebag. No if's and's or but's about that one. She made my life a living hell in wood working class. until this day i still blame her for my not passing. my mother still doesnt believe me. but that chick was a huge bitch. even nikki and them didnt like her because she was so mean.

yeah, it definatly was a huge soap opera. Somebody was ALWAYS fighting with somebody, or was always mad at somebody. Chris and Des fought all the time. Well, Des fought with Chris. Richard and I were always fighting. You and Corey just sort of stayed away from us when we were all fighting. Yeah, I haven't played truth or dare since Riverton. Now we play big people games like "lets see who can stay up the latest". ::laughs:: we played cops and robbers like every night too, even when there was snow EVERYWHERE! Remember the night it was raining and thundering, and Richard slipped on the hill, and just as his butt hit the hill, this huge bolt of lightening when through the sky? oh man. that was funny. Or when we made that HUGE hole in the snow bank and Corey fell in it? or was that you? I can't remember.

I used to sneak out of the house really late a night to go see Richard. ::frowns:: I'm was always so scared I was going to get caught and my mom would kill me. I would go over there and he'd meet me out front of his house, and we'd sit out on the sidewalk and talk, and cops would always come into the circle so we had to go hide behind the buildings. Richard's dad used to joke and say that Richard and I were meeting up for some "late night romps". It was SO funny. Those were the nights when Richard wasn't a complete dickface to me. ::shrugs::

Remember how the boys would spend hours, upon hours at Richard's playing video games? And us girls were never allowed in? But then that day you, des and I all spent in my room, and the boys got so mad because mom kept telling them that she didnt know where we were, and eventually they found out?

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yeah, nikki and kristy hated eachother. kristy used to always make fun of her and call her flat chest, and nikki got mad and started yelling at her about it one day, and kristy was scared of her, even though she wouldn't admit it, and then my mom got mad, and that's when her and nikki's mom started disliking eachother.
and, yeah, i remember amun, too. i hated that girl, the only reason why i was nice to her was because i was afraid that if i wasn't, she'd beat me up! lol. she was just a bitch like that. she always took advantage of everyone. she would use people for food and money. she'd always "borrow" things, and then never give the item back, or pay the person back. she stole some money from my brother before, and i got so mad at her about it, but, of course, she never admitted to doing it. i also remember when she had the biggest crush on will, and will only went out with her because he was scared of her, too! lmao. he hated her, though, everyone would always make fun of her because her hair looked plastic. haha.
yeah, i remember when richard fell! that was so hilarious. i also remember the time you weren't allowed to come outside, so richard and i stayed out in front of your window, so that we could talk to you, and we were bored, so we started play fighting, and richard kept dragging me across the snow and the ice, and throwing me down the hill. he kicked my ass, and i got really bad frost bite on my feet, but, even so, it was a lot of fun. lol.
oh yeah! that was the greatest day ever when we hid from the boys! they were so worried/mad at us because they had no idea where we were, yet it felt so good to have them worry about us for once, considering we could never get them to come out. they eventually found out we had lied to them, though. i remember how mad they got at us for that.
oh, and i also remember movie nights at your house! you would always invite a bunch of people over to watch movies, and des would always fall asleep in chris' lap, and i would always end up messing around with someone (no, not in that way, i'm just referring to the time, i cut richard's leg hair, lmao).

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oh! and "movie night" also makes me think of that time we were watching that headless horseman movie (me, you, richard, and your mom), and i couldn't stop laughing about the movie title, and about the movie itself, i just thought it was so hilarious. my laughing got really bad to the point where i had to leave your house because your mom was getting annoyed with me because i wouldn't shut up, and i was ruining the movie. lol.

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oh my god movie nights were so funny. "hand check!" My mom was so funny with that. I remember when you cut richards leg hairs off. that was fucking funny. he was SO mad. and he was even more mad that i let you do it. that movie was funny. yeah, she definalty got wicked mad. it was weird, richard and i would always veg out with mom and watch a movie. yet she really didnt like richard. it was strange.

i remember when will dated her. that was so funny. everybody but her knew that he was only dating her because he was scared of her. and when they broke up, she cried. i sort of felt bad for her, but at the same time i thought she deserved it. she was so mean to him.

oh yeah, and that time nikki's mom told your mom that kristy and corey were molesting each other at the bus stop at the top of riverton. that was the most fucked up relationship ever. he was like a hundred years older than her, and she SWORE that i was jealous of her because of that. but she was definatly jealous of me, because she kept saying that she could get richard if she wanted, and according to him, so im not sure how true this is, she tried to get with him while he and i were together, and he basically shot her down real bad.

and all those times your sister wanted to fight me. i always backed out because i just didnt want to deal with that shit, and she swore it was because i was afraid of her. remember that? Damn, after I stopped hanging out with her, she was so pissed at me. I remember that night Richard went and stayed at Paul's, and I got SO mad at him because I thought he was going up there to do drugs, and your sister tried to be all comforting and what not, and she kept telling me how horrible he was because he didnt respect my feelings. i think that was the first night that richard actually showed some emotions towards me. ::shrugs::

man, times have changed so much. remember when my sister fell down that hill and broke her leg? lol.

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i actually didn't think richard minded too much when i cut his leg hair off because he didn't try to stop me or anything, he was just laughing... he just got mad about it after because his leg hair was uneven with his other leg, so then he had me cut the other side, as well. lmao.
corey, kristy's ex, always scared me... he was kinda weird. my mom got so pissed when he gave her a hickey, and i laughed about it, although i can't say much now because will has given me a hickey twice, and my mom has seen it both times, and she got really mad at me, too. lol. only difference was that i was 17 and kristy was 12 when she got hers. corey was 16 at the time they went out, i think. and, from what i heard, he has kids now.
i remember how upset all of us got at the guys for doing drugs. i sorta gave up with andrew, especially when he became "too cool" for us, but i felt bad because you and des were always crying, and... yeah. those boys were dumb. paul was stupid, too, and i remember that des didn't really like him all that much because he had the biggest crush on her, and it freaked her out. he was kinda weird, though. and, i guess he ended up dropping out of school, as well, but that doesn't really surprise me.
yeah, i remember your sister hurting her leg! did i still live in riverton at that time, though? i'm not sure if i did, but i remember hearing about it... that also makes me think of the time amanda gove was rolling down the hill, and she rolled in dog crap, and her dad got so pissed off at her because of it. he was such an ass to his kids, though.
you know who i just realized that we forgot and haven't mentioned yet?! JOHN! lol. he was so funny... i miss him, too. and i still can't believe he's actually married now...
also, do you remember tom? he was such a perverted freak! i remember that time he had you ask me out for him when he hung out with us one time, and i said no, but i felt really bad about it, even though he was a freak. he said it was okay that i said no, but he wanted me to hug him, so i let him, and it was... yeah... awkward. he's a sex offender now, which isn't surprising. i saw him on maine's sex offender list.
oooh. i also remember the time when des and i started going skating with trish every wednesday, and her friend asked me out. his real name is nick, but everyone called him cartman. he asked me to couple skate with him, and i was mad at andrew at the time, so i did it, and andrew got really mad at me for it. that was bad. but i never understood why he cared, considering he got a lap dance from that other girl anyway. he was such a player. but i always wonder what it would be like to talk to him now... i always wonder about what he would say to me if we ever talked again, and if he still even remembers me...

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OH MY GOD! I completely forgot about John. I saw him when my Dad had his surgery. Stew, Ben, and I went to Arbys in portland and he was working there. His wife is gourgous. I miss that kid. He was a good kid when he wasn't being a dink. And when Richard wasn't there for me when my grampa died, John was. Remember that? You and John sat out back of my house with me all afternoon. I don't remember nick. but i definatly remember tom. he had the biggest crush on you, des and me. It was so scary. Remember that afternoon i couldn't get him to get the hell away from my kitchen window? that was fucking creepy. Do you remember Jerry? That guy that I ended up skating with that night richard wouldnt go with us? Do you remember Larry? He was in the news paper a few months ago, he commited suicide. I felt so horrible for days after I read that article because I was such a bitch to him. I listened to Des and Jake when they told me that he was just a jerk. Oh god, do you remember Greg? That was probably the stupidest thing I've ever done. Another boyfriend of mine your sister swore she could steal from me. funny how she kept saying that, and it never happened. ::laughs:: Toms a sex offender now? To little kids? or to adults? Man, so much has changed since then.

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i haven't seen john in years! he was always the sweetest of the guys. i've never seen his wife, though. but, i bet she is real pretty!
and, yeah, i remember jerry. i can't remember what he looked like, though. but, what ever happened to him anyway? why did you two stop talking?
that's so horrible about what happened to larry! wow. i can't believe it. i think i met him once or twice... i wonder why he killed himself, though...? that's so sad! what was his last name? i can't remember it.
do you still talk to jake, by the way? he was such a goofball, but he was really sweet. i used to talk to him online, but then we lost touch. :(
and, yes, tom's a sex offender. you can see his profile by going here. just take a look at his picture. lmao. it's hilarious. something is wrong with his eyes, he looks like he's on drugs or something.

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by the way, tim thomas is on the sex offender list, also (click here), but i'm pretty sure everyone knows that by now anyway. lol. he was always a freak, too.

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Tim Thomas is a fucking dickhead. He dated my cousin Sandra for the longest time, and he always cheated on her. She was dumb enough to take him back too. There was this one time at Deering, I saw him in the hall, and he insisted I gave him a hug. So I did, because I didn't want to be a bitch, and the fucking bastard felt me up. I punched him in the nuts, and ended up with two days inschool for it. I was like "what the fuck". He was SO dirty. I used to keep my shades pulled at night because I was afraid he was watching me. One night I was opening the window and he was standing over at the laundry mat looking towards my room. this was after you had moved. it scared the shit out of me. i hate the guy. i seriously hope he fucking dies. thats all there is to that.

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tim thomas peeked in every girl's window. i used to hear stories like that about him all the time. he was really weird... and he looked like such a dumbass when he put tape over his glasses, the time that he broke them or something. lol.

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Oh god, I remember that. It was gay. I wanted to punch him in the face.

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yeah, it made him look like a pirate.

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Larrys last name is Balanger. He dated Liz, your friend there. Um, I'm not sure either. But I wish that I didn't stop talking to him. He was a sweetheart, and he thought the world of me. But being me, I always went back to Ricahrd. :(

Yeah, his wife is really pretty. John always dating the pretty ones, except Felicia. He was sweet, and he always told me how stupid I was for dating Ricahrd. ::laughs:: how right he was. That's how I kept finding out all of these "secrets" of Richard's. Like the fact that his "previous girlfriends", never even existed. ::laughs::

No, I lost touch with Jake after he and my friend Britney split. I introduced them, and then she went for Stew. After that, I didn't talk to Jake. Then Britney tried hooking me up with this James guy. He gave me the willies. You wouldn't believe. We went out to a movie and the FIRST night I meet the kid, he kissed me. I was like "WOAH BUDDY!" Right in the middle of the movie. The old couple in front of us turned around and gave us a dirty look. I moved to the front of the theater and avoided him the rest of the night. God only knows what he would have done. He told Britney he couldn't help because he thought I was so pretty. I was like, you're a fucking fruitcake.

Tom, man, that kid was dirty.

Until this day, I think Des bribed that kid to skate with me. I know it sounds dumb, but c'mon, he was hot, why the hell would he skate with me? And want my number? ::shrugs::