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Christmas sucks.
yesturday (christmas eve)
i had to make everything and clean everything up.
then having the big disput between my parents i had to be the mother
and feed my dad then feed the rest of the family.
they even fought about who was going to pray for my grandma.
its rediculous.
being polish and everything we open presents last night
and i got: markers. perfume. this fucking gay shit for my face that i will never use and a purse that is ugly as hell a bracelet that is broken.. jen and mario are fucking worthless pieces of shit.
we bought them together over 200 dollars of nice stuff. they gave us stuff from there house.
fuck you guys. fucking greedy son of a bitches.
that wasn't even the bad part.
i went to my room cause i was going to cry.
i did cry.
cause they are a family without me. its like im not a part of it.
and my mom just thinks im a liar.
So i couldnt leave the house till late. and i was goignto go visit michelle after colleens
but i didnt get to colleens. and colleens dad wouldnt permitt me and martin to leave.
then when we were going to go to see michelle. like i was so happy to go see her.
then she called and told me she was going to stephs. so it was a sucky xmas..
and it doesnt even end there.
we came home.
i went tochelsea. to atleast improve my spirts. cause she has a way to do that.
then i had to go to a church that was an hour away for midnight mass.
we got lost 8 times. litterally. martin was complaining about having to pee.
i just wanted to sleep and end the night.
and my mom was no sleep asia!.
and while we were going there. we were at a red light
and someone FUCKING HIT MY CAR!.
so we got to church the longest mass of my life.
i feel asleep durning church and i felt bad.
like i had my head down and just slept.
and when i tried to look up i got dizzy and my eyes were all small and i couldnt see.
we got lost another 4 times on the way home.
and we went through this town on our way there.
it was so pretty and romantic. and just bumbed me out more.
cause i wont have anyone to walk through it with.
like E V E R Y O N E E L S E H A S ! !
then i got home and went to bed.
then this morning.. merrry fucking christmas.
im woken up by the sound of my parents fighting.
my mom on the verge of crying.
my dad saying threats about shit.
then coming here and reading how wonderful everyone elses christmas was.
.. well fuck you..
and while i was making the food i had to put cake in the garage cause its cold. and a fucking squarill fucking attack my cake.
SUCH A FUCKING GREAT CHRISTMAS. MOTHER FUCKERS.
one good thing.
chelsea got me amazing presents cause she is an amazing friend
she got my a cddddd that i wanted for forever.
insenceee from shades of africa
haha to get some african in me. =o lol
and a really pretty shirt.
yesturday (christmas eve)
i had to make everything and clean everything up.
then having the big disput between my parents i had to be the mother
and feed my dad then feed the rest of the family.
they even fought about who was going to pray for my grandma.
its rediculous.
being polish and everything we open presents last night
and i got: markers. perfume. this fucking gay shit for my face that i will never use and a purse that is ugly as hell a bracelet that is broken.. jen and mario are fucking worthless pieces of shit.
we bought them together over 200 dollars of nice stuff. they gave us stuff from there house.
fuck you guys. fucking greedy son of a bitches.
that wasn't even the bad part.
i went to my room cause i was going to cry.
i did cry.
cause they are a family without me. its like im not a part of it.
and my mom just thinks im a liar.
So i couldnt leave the house till late. and i was goignto go visit michelle after colleens
but i didnt get to colleens. and colleens dad wouldnt permitt me and martin to leave.
then when we were going to go to see michelle. like i was so happy to go see her.
then she called and told me she was going to stephs. so it was a sucky xmas..
and it doesnt even end there.
we came home.
i went tochelsea. to atleast improve my spirts. cause she has a way to do that.
then i had to go to a church that was an hour away for midnight mass.
we got lost 8 times. litterally. martin was complaining about having to pee.
i just wanted to sleep and end the night.
and my mom was no sleep asia!.
and while we were going there. we were at a red light
and someone FUCKING HIT MY CAR!.
so we got to church the longest mass of my life.
i feel asleep durning church and i felt bad.
like i had my head down and just slept.
and when i tried to look up i got dizzy and my eyes were all small and i couldnt see.
we got lost another 4 times on the way home.
and we went through this town on our way there.
it was so pretty and romantic. and just bumbed me out more.
cause i wont have anyone to walk through it with.
like E V E R Y O N E E L S E H A S ! !
then i got home and went to bed.
then this morning.. merrry fucking christmas.
im woken up by the sound of my parents fighting.
my mom on the verge of crying.
my dad saying threats about shit.
then coming here and reading how wonderful everyone elses christmas was.
.. well fuck you..
and while i was making the food i had to put cake in the garage cause its cold. and a fucking squarill fucking attack my cake.
SUCH A FUCKING GREAT CHRISTMAS. MOTHER FUCKERS.
one good thing.
chelsea got me amazing presents cause she is an amazing friend
she got my a cddddd that i wanted for forever.
insenceee from shades of africa
haha to get some african in me. =o lol
and a really pretty shirt.