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so this is gonna be my last entry. ive had this thing since sophomore year of college and while i consider just making a new one and not telling anyone but mary and liz and the others...i dont know why id even bother with that much. its a nice place to get retrospective and talk about this little life that we have here but while i made it in college...i didnt want it to make me feel like i was still in college. i try to not talk about people in here...especially not people that mean a lot to me. but people talk. and i think when you talk about someone, that person is bound to find out one way or another. i know who reads this...and if i ever offended anyone, it was never my intention. maybe i lay here at night and dont say things in the most eloquent or polite way, but i never ever wanted to hurt anyones feelings or piss anyone off. i feel like i am a pretty easy person to live with. but lately ive just been ready to get out of hawaii becuase i feel like a lot of what i say and do is just used against me. or ridiculed behind my back.
i dont feel comfortable here. i guess its something i should get over but really, there is no ohana. we all know this. i think we're all kidding ourselves.
i dont care about craig. im not upset that hes gone...im glad that hes gone and im excited for us both to just stop talking to/about eachother. please dont think that i am sitting here upset cos hes not tripping all over me. cos really...when did he? as soon as we broke up he started bashing me, telling me i was bad in bed and that i had a hairy ass. really...what about him could i miss?
i dont know when it all started but i feel like everything, from my thing with morv to like...my having the master bedroom now (which, trust me, id give up if it meant people werent talking about me)is a reason for someone to be annoyed with me. im doing the best i can to do my part in cleaning the house...paying bills on time...being considerate with little stuff like hot water, dirty dishes, and keeping clean in general. i dont know.
the lj will still be up so i can keep up with friends, but no more entries. thanks guys.
i dont feel comfortable here. i guess its something i should get over but really, there is no ohana. we all know this. i think we're all kidding ourselves.
i dont care about craig. im not upset that hes gone...im glad that hes gone and im excited for us both to just stop talking to/about eachother. please dont think that i am sitting here upset cos hes not tripping all over me. cos really...when did he? as soon as we broke up he started bashing me, telling me i was bad in bed and that i had a hairy ass. really...what about him could i miss?
i dont know when it all started but i feel like everything, from my thing with morv to like...my having the master bedroom now (which, trust me, id give up if it meant people werent talking about me)is a reason for someone to be annoyed with me. im doing the best i can to do my part in cleaning the house...paying bills on time...being considerate with little stuff like hot water, dirty dishes, and keeping clean in general. i dont know.
the lj will still be up so i can keep up with friends, but no more entries. thanks guys.