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I'm afraid, insecure and in lots of pain. Alone alone alone alone alone.
But its crazy to keep burdening people, that's why I act, that's why I pretend I don't care, that's why you think I never notice. But I do, every single little subtle action, and every time I wish I can remove that silly pretense. (I secretly want to shout, to sulk and to rage.)
Can you allow me to let my guard down in front of YOU?
Or do I have to continue to act strong and be that pseudo-pillar-of-strength? I could crumble quite easily though, its easy to break through the illusion that I create.
Or just pretend I never said anything, never appealed to anything. Who cares right? Xinying could disappear and people would wait days before they realise she's gone.
But its crazy to keep burdening people, that's why I act, that's why I pretend I don't care, that's why you think I never notice. But I do, every single little subtle action, and every time I wish I can remove that silly pretense. (I secretly want to shout, to sulk and to rage.)
Can you allow me to let my guard down in front of YOU?
Or do I have to continue to act strong and be that pseudo-pillar-of-strength? I could crumble quite easily though, its easy to break through the illusion that I create.
Or just pretend I never said anything, never appealed to anything. Who cares right? Xinying could disappear and people would wait days before they realise she's gone.