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I wish I met the people I know now a long time ago. I met them at the worst possible time. Right before everyone started growing and changing. Its hard. I change very little and am still looking to have fun, but good fun. Not get-drunk-off-my-ass-and-do-drugs fun. Its more of a struggle to even hang out with people that are like that now. We've all grown to far apart. They want to hang out with people that do the same things as them, while I want to do things just to have fun.
I guess I'd be considered a bore to other people that are out sleeping around and whatever else, but I think its far better to have self-control. Its harder and shows more dedication. My word, I sound old!
Sometimes I wish I was wreckless and didn't give a shit.
My life would be much more fun. I'd have a lot more friends as well... But then again, they'd be friends for all the wrong reasons. I'm just a shlap that wants everything back to how it was.
I had my piece of mind for a bit and then things changed.
No one has been able to fit the bill.
And I find myself getting attached and having crushes on people that don't care or just don't have time for me. Normally I find myself out of ruts. Thats why I don't like liking anyone.
People are dissapointing.
But thats life...Atleast that is MY life.
I guess I'd be considered a bore to other people that are out sleeping around and whatever else, but I think its far better to have self-control. Its harder and shows more dedication. My word, I sound old!
Sometimes I wish I was wreckless and didn't give a shit.
My life would be much more fun. I'd have a lot more friends as well... But then again, they'd be friends for all the wrong reasons. I'm just a shlap that wants everything back to how it was.
I had my piece of mind for a bit and then things changed.
No one has been able to fit the bill.
And I find myself getting attached and having crushes on people that don't care or just don't have time for me. Normally I find myself out of ruts. Thats why I don't like liking anyone.
People are dissapointing.
But thats life...Atleast that is MY life.